Iâd come to California for four weeks in the summer and my dad would just leave me be. I think Iâm projecting some of that resentment onto you,â she admitted. Actually she knew she was doing it. He was one of her fatherâs favorites. It was hard not to want what he had gotten from her dad. Respect. Attention.
âI havenât felt anything like that. It seems more to me that youâre afraid to trust yourself. To just let go and be comfortable with me.â
âMaybe,â she admitted. âBut then I donât believe for one second that you are being yourself with me.â
He shrugged.
She was starting to notice he did that a lot. Perhaps he thought it was a nice neutral response. But she saw it as a shield. His way of not answering when a subject cut a little too close to the truth. And she got that. Really she did. She wanted to run away from things that made her feel too much. But running had never worked.
âHow about this? You stop shrugging and answer me and Iâll try to let go so we can have some fun today.â
âI have been having fun. You make me feel again, Ferrin. Itâs not lustâbecause thatâs easy and hormone-drivenâbut something more. I never thought Iâd feel this way around a woman again.â
She arched her eyebrow at him. âAm I expected to believe that?â
He gave her a sheepish grin. âYes, you are. Itâs true. I want you, Iâm not going to deny that, but there is more to it. This isnât a simple conquest.â
âI should hope not,â she said, but there was lightness in his tone that made her want to smile.
âWhich part are you talking aboutâthe simple or the conquest?â
âI guess youâll have to stick around to find out,â she said.
âOh, I intend to,â he said.
He put his arms around her and pulled her back against his chest. The sea breeze wrapped around them as they stood facing the horizon and she stopped worrying.
He tipped her chin back against his shoulder and lowered his head to kiss her. His lips moved over hers, taking her mouth slowlyâcompletely.
When they got back on the road, he didnât take her back to her car but on a drive up the Pacific Coast Highway. They took turns picking songs on the digital radio station and quizzing each other to see who knew the artist singing. They talked about the best food theyâd ever eatenâsteak in Argentina for him, strawberry shortcake in Plant City, Florida, for her. And for a while she forgot about her father and football and all the things in life that sheâd never been able to find peace with.
She forgot that she wasnât sure she could trust Hunterâin fact, somehow in the midst of laughter and confessions about things that seemed small and inconsequential she realized that she had started to trust him. Sheâd started to show him the real Ferrin Gainer, and unless she was very much mistaken she thought she was seeing Hunter the man, not the NFL player plagued by past scandal.
Five
I t had been a little over a week since her day with Hunter. True to his word, heâd left her free to make her decision. It was as if heâd disappeared from her life. She wanted him back. The past week sheâd spent a lot of time in this house with Coach. And she still wasnât any closer to a decision.
She stood in the hallway outside his in-home study. The door was solid hardwood and the handle polished brass. It was cold under her hand. Maybe it was her imagination but she sensed her father wouldnât want her in his office.
She opened the door, stepped inside and then quickly closed it behind her.
Ferrin quietly entered the room that sheâd avoided since returning to California. She stood there in the doorway remembering when sheâd tried to come in here as a teen and her father had simply gestured for her to leave.
A part of her thought maybe that was why she
Jaqueline Girdner
Lisa G Riley
Anna Gavalda
Lauren Miller
Ann Ripley
Alan Lynn
Sandra Brown
James Robertson
Jamie Salisbury