Kya & Xavier: It's Always Been You (Life As We Know It Book 1) by Charelle Mills Page B

not
something you had to figure out or learn.”
    “Okay you can get that.” He said being a little to agreeable
for me which definitely wasn’t his style.
    “I know I can. So that's on you. You were always enough for
me, I just wasn't enough for you.” I got pissed just thinking about it which
made the tears begin to form and I could feel my body tense so I took another
step back.
    “Chill Ky, I don't wanna argue with you.” His voice was calm
and unmoved like always which pissed me off even more. “I just want it to be us
again. Just you and me.”
    “We're better off like we are, I’m not doing that
again.”  
    “Why not?” He asked with the most serious look on his face. Are you freaking kidding me, why? Because
you turn into a little man whore every time we try and I end up hating you.
    “You know why, it never works. We start off good and then you
get stupid and I get hurt.”
    “Just give me a chance Ky.” He said clearly ignoring my
explanation and I knew that he kept saying my name because he was trying to
break me down without physically touching me.
    “I don't know if I can. We're good now and I don't wanna mess
that up because this time we might not be able to fix it when things go wrong.”
    “Come on Ky, don't assume that things will go wrong, just let
me try.” Stop saying my dang name like
that! “That's all I ask. If it doesn't work that's on me but at least let
me try.” When I didn’t say anything he grabbed my hand and pulled me close
again. “Kya?” This time he kissed me and held me tight so I gave in and kissed
him back even though everything in me was screaming no.
    “You’re not exactly single, so what about that?”
    “Do you think I care what anybody else thinks?” He kissed me
on the neck and then my lips again. “You know me better than that.” And I did, I
wanted to believe him but we had been in this exact same place too many times
before and I was afraid that if it didn’t work this time that it would be the end
of us and for good. I didn’t know if I was prepared for that but it looks like
I didn’t have a choice.

 

 
    Xavier Lee
    I don’t know where that came from but I couldn’t help myself.
Maybe it was my way of having a legit reason to get rid of Tori since I’m back with my girl sounded a hell of
a lot better than I’m done using you for sex or maybe I was finally ready to
admit that Kya was it for me but either way I was in it now and there was no
backing out. I couldn’t do that to her again or I knew for sure that she would
close the door for good. Whether I was ready to commit or not I had to figure
out how to be. Either get my shit together or I was going to lose her for real and
that was not an option.
      I knew that I cared
about her but sometimes I wondered if I had it in me to be the kind of man she
needed me to be. Most of the time it was just easier to deal with her no
strings attached even though I owed her way more than that.
    As I approached my jeep I could see that Ethan was standing
beside it talking to someone but it was dark and I was too far to tell who it
was. When I finally got close enough and realized it was Tori I felt a wave of
heat run through my body. Damn will she
let it go?
    “You ready bruh.” I said without even acknowledging her.
    “Yeah let’s roll.” He said.” Tori just watched but she didn’t
say a word.
    We got in and I pulled off not really caring about the way
that I had just dismissed her. I was irritated that she wouldn’t just fall off
for a minute and she definitely didn’t know me very well if she thought that
pressing the issue was going to work in her favor. All she was doing was making
it easier for me to walk away without giving it a second thought.
    “Dude, what the hell is going on with you two?” Ethan asked
but he wasn’t looking at me. He was digging through his bag looking for
something.
    “Man you know how that goes. She thinks it’s more than it
really is.” I said