close enough for me to smell him, but walked past me and took a seat in the next pew while I digested the fact that he’d heard my little tirade.
“The music started up when I was just outside the door. I saw some weird-looking guys when I was parking. Do you all have a football team?”
That cracked me up. I slung an arm over my eyes. “We do now.”
“Well, anyway, I was headed back to the car when I heard you in there. Good stuff.”
I peeked at him, with that big, crooked grin. My toes curled in my moccasins.
He leaned over and pinched one of my toes, my pinky. “Nice shoes. The real thing?”
I nodded. “Always.”
He pulled his hand up onto the back of the pew. “You’re the genuine article. I’ll give you that.”
No, you gave her that.
Where did that come from? Was I losing my mind? Probably. If not, I would soon if he kept staring at me like that. By the time I remembered I could look away, that this wasn’t one of the stare-down competitions from our playground days, I could almost hear the bionic music in my head.
He nodded. “Definitely a Six-Million-Dollar moment.”
My eyes fluttered shut, my brain flashed to us running down the avenue making our bionic noises, our way to break the mood after a long day at school. Later, it became the cover for tense moments, as well. Me falling down the stairs in the civic center with my name on my back or Adrian blowing up the chemistry labwere never, as our teachers termed them, “painful experiences” or “embarrassing times.” Just Six-Million-Dollar moments. Like now.
God, are you trying to kill me?
The tears ran sideways down my face. Into my ears. My hair. I didn’t bother to wipe them away. Resistance was futile.
He leaned over that pew somehow because I could see the blur of him above me, but he didn’t leave his row. For that I was thankful.
“Just cut it out, okay? Please. Go home,” I said.
His fingers, long and slender, and always smelling like something good, touched the corner of my good eye. He didn’t try to wipe the tear away. He just touched it. His touch felt like a poker searing through my brain. Jasmine, my favorite scent, escaped his fingertips to torture me further.
“I am so proud of you, Dane. I’m sorry I didn’t say that this morning. It’s true though. When I heard you in there tonight, I couldn’t help but think that. How proud I am of you.” He traced the path of my tears to the top of my ear and then leaned back on his knees, safely restricted to his pew.
I lifted my head, more to let the tears drain out of my ears than to face him, but there he was. “I wish you hadn’t come in on that. It’s just—”
“I think you explained it very well.” He stacked his fists on the edge of the pew and rested his chin on top. “I get it. Trust me.”
Trust him? Hadn’t I tried that program before? “I guess I’ll have to. Trust that you understand, that is. It’s been so long that my mind plays tricks. We’re grown up now. Changed. I don’t know you anymore, not the man you are.”
That should get rid of him.
Adrian sighed. He pulled off his glasses, pinched the bridge of his nose.
Uh-oh.
“Don’t try that with me, okay? I’m not your Dad or Jordan. Or even Dahlia. I know I messed up. I should have called. I should have tried harder to connect with you, even when you wouldn’t respond. Still, it wouldn’t have been any easier than this.”
I stiffened at the mention of my brother and sister and at his quick deflection of the isolation tactics that worked so well with others. I sat up slowly, estimating the miles back to my apartment again. Couldn’t be more than six, maybe seven…
“She told me that she called you. Sandy, I mean.”
That struck me like a punch. Had she told him what she’d said, too? Had he come here for that? For me to “take care of him?” I hoped not. I could barely take care of myself. “She did call. I had hoped we’d talk again.” I paused to mop my eyes.
“The music started up when I was just outside the door. I saw some weird-looking guys when I was parking. Do you all have a football team?”
That cracked me up. I slung an arm over my eyes. “We do now.”
“Well, anyway, I was headed back to the car when I heard you in there. Good stuff.”
I peeked at him, with that big, crooked grin. My toes curled in my moccasins.
He leaned over and pinched one of my toes, my pinky. “Nice shoes. The real thing?”
I nodded. “Always.”
He pulled his hand up onto the back of the pew. “You’re the genuine article. I’ll give you that.”
No, you gave her that.
Where did that come from? Was I losing my mind? Probably. If not, I would soon if he kept staring at me like that. By the time I remembered I could look away, that this wasn’t one of the stare-down competitions from our playground days, I could almost hear the bionic music in my head.
He nodded. “Definitely a Six-Million-Dollar moment.”
My eyes fluttered shut, my brain flashed to us running down the avenue making our bionic noises, our way to break the mood after a long day at school. Later, it became the cover for tense moments, as well. Me falling down the stairs in the civic center with my name on my back or Adrian blowing up the chemistry labwere never, as our teachers termed them, “painful experiences” or “embarrassing times.” Just Six-Million-Dollar moments. Like now.
God, are you trying to kill me?
The tears ran sideways down my face. Into my ears. My hair. I didn’t bother to wipe them away. Resistance was futile.
He leaned over that pew somehow because I could see the blur of him above me, but he didn’t leave his row. For that I was thankful.
“Just cut it out, okay? Please. Go home,” I said.
His fingers, long and slender, and always smelling like something good, touched the corner of my good eye. He didn’t try to wipe the tear away. He just touched it. His touch felt like a poker searing through my brain. Jasmine, my favorite scent, escaped his fingertips to torture me further.
“I am so proud of you, Dane. I’m sorry I didn’t say that this morning. It’s true though. When I heard you in there tonight, I couldn’t help but think that. How proud I am of you.” He traced the path of my tears to the top of my ear and then leaned back on his knees, safely restricted to his pew.
I lifted my head, more to let the tears drain out of my ears than to face him, but there he was. “I wish you hadn’t come in on that. It’s just—”
“I think you explained it very well.” He stacked his fists on the edge of the pew and rested his chin on top. “I get it. Trust me.”
Trust him? Hadn’t I tried that program before? “I guess I’ll have to. Trust that you understand, that is. It’s been so long that my mind plays tricks. We’re grown up now. Changed. I don’t know you anymore, not the man you are.”
That should get rid of him.
Adrian sighed. He pulled off his glasses, pinched the bridge of his nose.
Uh-oh.
“Don’t try that with me, okay? I’m not your Dad or Jordan. Or even Dahlia. I know I messed up. I should have called. I should have tried harder to connect with you, even when you wouldn’t respond. Still, it wouldn’t have been any easier than this.”
I stiffened at the mention of my brother and sister and at his quick deflection of the isolation tactics that worked so well with others. I sat up slowly, estimating the miles back to my apartment again. Couldn’t be more than six, maybe seven…
“She told me that she called you. Sandy, I mean.”
That struck me like a punch. Had she told him what she’d said, too? Had he come here for that? For me to “take care of him?” I hoped not. I could barely take care of myself. “She did call. I had hoped we’d talk again.” I paused to mop my eyes.
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