her too much.
Chapter SIX
N ever in my twenty-eight years had I been so fucking happy to be back in Seattle. We had only been able to catch a flight early on Sunday morning. As soon as our flight landed, I called Bekka to pick us up. Phoenix sat on me, barely able to keep her eyes open. The migraine turned out to be utterly painful. She couldn’t wait to take her medication. Note to self: always make sure her medications were packed when we’re going away.
Bekka was in my bedroom with Nix, talking and taking care of her. Tyler was sitting with me, watching me and waiting for me to ask the damn question I wished I never had to ask.
“So... hum... You heard about what happened to Nix?” Of course, he knew. Get to the fucking point, Levi.
Tyler nodded, not adding or saying anything more.
“So, what did you do when you relapsed?”
“I thought I was... shit... I was living in a fucking hell. I hated myself for taking something, but it brought back the addiction, even though I had been clean for five years.”
“She hates herself and I hate myself too. If I had followed her, I would have been able to stop her... but I didn’t and... Maybe she felt the pressure of taking something or it could be the stress of visiting him.” I would never forgive myself for that.
“Stop, man. Remorse isn’t going to do her any good, okay?” I nodded. “Right now, she needs to know that you trust her, believe in her, and love her.”
“I do. She’s my life.”
He chuckled. “Yeah, okay, Romeo. She might try to get her next fix and please know that she’s probably struggling like a fucker right now. She doesn’t want to do it but she craves it. Keep an eye on her without being too obvious. Don’t ruin this.”
Tyler had some drug issues when we turned twenty years old. He was stoned every damn day of the week, but his parents forced him into rehab and he did the ninety day program. He relapsed a few years ago but he’s all better now.
“It’s good to have you here, Ty.” We fist bumped. “I’ll do whatever I have to keep her sane.”
“I trust you, brother. You were there for me. You helped me through my shit.” He smiled, thankful.
I did help him and I remember every damn day I spent with him. He was moody and groggy and a total pain in the ass, but I stayed with him because Tyler was like a brother to me. If the situation were reversed, I knew he would have done the same thing.
“This time, it feels different. I love her, but I don’t know her as well as I knew you. I’m afraid that I’ll say or do something wrong.”
“You guys are deeper than that.” He drank his beer like there was nothing to worry about. “Go with your gut, how you feel with her. I’m no psychiatrist, but go with your heart, man. You love her, it’s all you need to help her.”
He was right and when I thought about what he said, I felt better. A weight was lifted off my shoulders. I loved her, and that was enough for me to save her from her demons.
“Hey, guys. She’s asleep now.” Bekka came into the kitchen and sat next to Tyler. They kissed and left me feeling like I didn’t belong there. “She wants to go back to class on Monday and try to live her normal life.”
“Damn, can she really do that?” I asked her, doubting it could be possible.
“The least we can do is let her try. If she can, that’s awesome and if she fails, we’ll have to help her.”
Normally, Phoenix was so strong and motivated about everything she was working on. Now, it all changed, and another side of her personality came through. “I’m not saying we can’t but what if she needs something much more than us. What if she needs to go back to rehab?”
“Then, she will. No other choice. I won’t let her ruin her life.” Bekka didn’t hesitate one second. Her friend’s life meant everything and she wouldn’t let Nix ruin what she worked so hard for.
“I’m with you. We’ll talk to her together, if we have to. But I want to be
Chapter SIX
N ever in my twenty-eight years had I been so fucking happy to be back in Seattle. We had only been able to catch a flight early on Sunday morning. As soon as our flight landed, I called Bekka to pick us up. Phoenix sat on me, barely able to keep her eyes open. The migraine turned out to be utterly painful. She couldn’t wait to take her medication. Note to self: always make sure her medications were packed when we’re going away.
Bekka was in my bedroom with Nix, talking and taking care of her. Tyler was sitting with me, watching me and waiting for me to ask the damn question I wished I never had to ask.
“So... hum... You heard about what happened to Nix?” Of course, he knew. Get to the fucking point, Levi.
Tyler nodded, not adding or saying anything more.
“So, what did you do when you relapsed?”
“I thought I was... shit... I was living in a fucking hell. I hated myself for taking something, but it brought back the addiction, even though I had been clean for five years.”
“She hates herself and I hate myself too. If I had followed her, I would have been able to stop her... but I didn’t and... Maybe she felt the pressure of taking something or it could be the stress of visiting him.” I would never forgive myself for that.
“Stop, man. Remorse isn’t going to do her any good, okay?” I nodded. “Right now, she needs to know that you trust her, believe in her, and love her.”
“I do. She’s my life.”
He chuckled. “Yeah, okay, Romeo. She might try to get her next fix and please know that she’s probably struggling like a fucker right now. She doesn’t want to do it but she craves it. Keep an eye on her without being too obvious. Don’t ruin this.”
Tyler had some drug issues when we turned twenty years old. He was stoned every damn day of the week, but his parents forced him into rehab and he did the ninety day program. He relapsed a few years ago but he’s all better now.
“It’s good to have you here, Ty.” We fist bumped. “I’ll do whatever I have to keep her sane.”
“I trust you, brother. You were there for me. You helped me through my shit.” He smiled, thankful.
I did help him and I remember every damn day I spent with him. He was moody and groggy and a total pain in the ass, but I stayed with him because Tyler was like a brother to me. If the situation were reversed, I knew he would have done the same thing.
“This time, it feels different. I love her, but I don’t know her as well as I knew you. I’m afraid that I’ll say or do something wrong.”
“You guys are deeper than that.” He drank his beer like there was nothing to worry about. “Go with your gut, how you feel with her. I’m no psychiatrist, but go with your heart, man. You love her, it’s all you need to help her.”
He was right and when I thought about what he said, I felt better. A weight was lifted off my shoulders. I loved her, and that was enough for me to save her from her demons.
“Hey, guys. She’s asleep now.” Bekka came into the kitchen and sat next to Tyler. They kissed and left me feeling like I didn’t belong there. “She wants to go back to class on Monday and try to live her normal life.”
“Damn, can she really do that?” I asked her, doubting it could be possible.
“The least we can do is let her try. If she can, that’s awesome and if she fails, we’ll have to help her.”
Normally, Phoenix was so strong and motivated about everything she was working on. Now, it all changed, and another side of her personality came through. “I’m not saying we can’t but what if she needs something much more than us. What if she needs to go back to rehab?”
“Then, she will. No other choice. I won’t let her ruin her life.” Bekka didn’t hesitate one second. Her friend’s life meant everything and she wouldn’t let Nix ruin what she worked so hard for.
“I’m with you. We’ll talk to her together, if we have to. But I want to be
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