Shaggy to give him a Scooby snack.
He grumbles, âI told her a hundred times to clean up her mess.â
âSheâs four. Let her be four.â
âShe has to learn responsibility now.â
âAnd sheâs still four.â
Pictures of Blue, his daughter, and her mom are in the living room on the wall, greeting people as they come in the door, as if he were waiting for her to come back. Even in a photograph, her energy is negative. Her eyes follow me. I look back at her. I think that picture should be in the bedroom, in a space as private as his thoughts.
His laptop is on his small kitchen table. He powers it down, moves it to the counter, then turns his small CD-radio onto KJLH. Nat King Coleâs classic holiday offering goes off as En Vogue comes on singing a funkdafied version of âSilent Night.â
I ask, âHowâs the screenplay coming along?â
He shakes his head. âSlow. Not a lot of free time to write.â
âStill no bites on the one you sent out?â
âMy wannabe agent thinks I should change the characters.â
âIn what way?â
âFrom black to white. Impossible to sell a black drama to Hollywood.â
âYou know what they say about selling a black film, âNo money if ainât funny.â â
I go to use his bathroom, then stop by the bedroom and peep in. Monica is sleeping wild and twisted, a tiny lump on a twin-size futon resting under white sheets and green covers. An old maple dresser rests against another wall. The dresser is forty years old. Used to belong to Blueâs old man. His dad was a postal carrier and his mom worked food service at a high school.
On the way back to the kitchen I step on Scooby-Doo. He talks to Velma this time.
Blueâs putting lemon cookies on a plate and making our ginger-peppermint tea.
I ask, âWhat happened this time?â
He shrugs. âHer mother was supposed to pick her up at noon.â
âWhat did she say?â
âNo-call, no-show.â
âYou have to work and she left you hanging again.â
âI know. She lacks selflessness and emotional maturity.â
âWhy donât you say something?â
âThrowing gas on a fire never helps.â
I sit down at his kitchen table. Sticky rings from where someone has put a glass or a cup on the table are on the side with the booster seat and the Blueâs Clues place mats. I get up and get paper towels and glass cleaner, maneuver around Blue, wipe down his table, then open his refrigerator to get out a lemon. Three-and four-letter kiddie words are on the refrigeratorâone of my gifts to his daughterâalong with preschool art projects, most unrecognizable.
Blue continues talking. âSheâs not mother material. Never has been maternal.â
âNot every woman is.â
He puts a cup of tea in front of me, sits the honey on the side. We sit. We season our tea with honey and lemon. We stir. We sip. We eat lemon cookies.
âWould be easier if I had a son.â
âDonât say that.â
âI love Mo. Wouldnât trade her for a sixty-four-and-a-half Mustang.â
âThatâs good to know.â
âBut sheâs a girl. Girls need to be around girls. And women. I just think Iâd do better with a boy. I understand football and basketball better than Barbie and SpongeBob.â
âShe needs her daddy too. We all need our daddies.â
âIâm doing my best.â
âYou stay strong and at least she wonât have the same men issues.â
âI know.â He shakes his head, rattling his memories. âCanât count the number of women Iâve dated who hate their daddies. They have deep wounds that wonât heal, so itâs like no man will ever live up to their unreal expectations.â
âSame goes for the brothers who didnât have a daddy. They end up treating . . . more like mistreating
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