attempt it. We cannot ignore any source of aid, or means of dividing the Empire’s
attention.’ He nodded, his decision made. ‘I myself shall go. Collegium should not need me now, not until Sarn is decided one way or the other. So I shall go and . . . Tynisa, will
you?’ You also need something to occupy your mind.
But Tynisa replied, ‘No.’
‘Tynisa, surely . . . ?’
‘Because there is something else I must do.’
‘Ah, no.’ Stenwold held up a hand, as though he could forbid her.
‘Yes, I must follow Tisamon and bring him back.’
‘He will not thank you for it.’
‘I do not want his thanks. I want merely to tell him that I do not care what he has done – and that he should not either. I want to speak to him for myself, and my mother. I want to
pull his guilt out of him, before the wound festers.’
* * *
The train rattled and jolted its way along the rails, each carriage packed with soldiers sleeping fitfully, or awake and sharing quiet words, games of chance, perhaps a communal
bottle. The Collegium relief force was on its way to Sarn.
Balkus passed down the train from carriage to carriage, stepping over carelessly stowed kitbags and the outstretched legs of sleepers, checking on the welfare of his men. Enough of the waking
had a nod or a smile for him that he felt this inspection was doing some good. They belonged to all walks of life, he knew, and many were men for whom Collegium had never found much use before.
Those were strong-armers, dock-brawlers, bruisers and wastrels, but the Vekken siege had overwritten their many years of bad living with the lesson that even they could be heroes, even they could
become the admired talk of their city. Others had signed up simply for the money, to escape creditors or enemies. More were simply those who wanted to do their bit as good citizens: he had here his
share of shopkeepers, tradesmen, runaway apprentices and College graduates. There had probably never been an army in history with so many men and women who could strip down an engine or discourse
on grammar. He even had a couple of College Masters, whom he had promoted to officers.
What a rabble, though . Most had fought the Vekken Ant-kinden, but the frantic defence of a walled city against one’s neighbours was not a field battle against a mighty Empire. He
was amazed that there were so many ordinary citizens signed up, and still signing. The people of Collegium were not like Ant-kinden to be so slavishly selfless, nor were they fools either. They
were stepping straight into the fires with their eyes open, in full knowledge of what they would face.
The very thought brought a lump into his throat. It brought back moments of the fight against the Vekken, especially after they had breached the walls. He was no Collegiate man himself, but he
felt a stubborn knot of pride in the way these shopkeepers and artisans had proved they would fight . Their military skills were suspect, their equipment untested, but their hearts were the
hearts of heroes, one and all.
He eventually found himself back at his own carriage, where Parops opened one eye on hearing his approach.
‘Everyone tucked in?’ the Tarkesh asked.
‘Going to have to kick them all awake soon enough,’ Balkus replied. ‘We can’t be far from the city, now.’
‘I could tell that from your enthusiasm,’ said Parops drily.
Balkus nodded again, heavy of heart. He sat down wearily, staring out of the window. Not being a man much accustomed to examining his feelings he could not have said whether this sudden
despondency was due to the imminent return to his long-abandoned home city or the prospect of leading so many untried soldiers into battle.
I should have stayed simple , he reflected. Ambition was the root of this. He might not even be on this troop-train if he had not pushed his way to the front when they were calling for
officers. I’m not commander material. I know it. But the men of Collegium had instantly
attention.’ He nodded, his decision made. ‘I myself shall go. Collegium should not need me now, not until Sarn is decided one way or the other. So I shall go and . . . Tynisa, will
you?’ You also need something to occupy your mind.
But Tynisa replied, ‘No.’
‘Tynisa, surely . . . ?’
‘Because there is something else I must do.’
‘Ah, no.’ Stenwold held up a hand, as though he could forbid her.
‘Yes, I must follow Tisamon and bring him back.’
‘He will not thank you for it.’
‘I do not want his thanks. I want merely to tell him that I do not care what he has done – and that he should not either. I want to speak to him for myself, and my mother. I want to
pull his guilt out of him, before the wound festers.’
* * *
The train rattled and jolted its way along the rails, each carriage packed with soldiers sleeping fitfully, or awake and sharing quiet words, games of chance, perhaps a communal
bottle. The Collegium relief force was on its way to Sarn.
Balkus passed down the train from carriage to carriage, stepping over carelessly stowed kitbags and the outstretched legs of sleepers, checking on the welfare of his men. Enough of the waking
had a nod or a smile for him that he felt this inspection was doing some good. They belonged to all walks of life, he knew, and many were men for whom Collegium had never found much use before.
Those were strong-armers, dock-brawlers, bruisers and wastrels, but the Vekken siege had overwritten their many years of bad living with the lesson that even they could be heroes, even they could
become the admired talk of their city. Others had signed up simply for the money, to escape creditors or enemies. More were simply those who wanted to do their bit as good citizens: he had here his
share of shopkeepers, tradesmen, runaway apprentices and College graduates. There had probably never been an army in history with so many men and women who could strip down an engine or discourse
on grammar. He even had a couple of College Masters, whom he had promoted to officers.
What a rabble, though . Most had fought the Vekken Ant-kinden, but the frantic defence of a walled city against one’s neighbours was not a field battle against a mighty Empire. He
was amazed that there were so many ordinary citizens signed up, and still signing. The people of Collegium were not like Ant-kinden to be so slavishly selfless, nor were they fools either. They
were stepping straight into the fires with their eyes open, in full knowledge of what they would face.
The very thought brought a lump into his throat. It brought back moments of the fight against the Vekken, especially after they had breached the walls. He was no Collegiate man himself, but he
felt a stubborn knot of pride in the way these shopkeepers and artisans had proved they would fight . Their military skills were suspect, their equipment untested, but their hearts were the
hearts of heroes, one and all.
He eventually found himself back at his own carriage, where Parops opened one eye on hearing his approach.
‘Everyone tucked in?’ the Tarkesh asked.
‘Going to have to kick them all awake soon enough,’ Balkus replied. ‘We can’t be far from the city, now.’
‘I could tell that from your enthusiasm,’ said Parops drily.
Balkus nodded again, heavy of heart. He sat down wearily, staring out of the window. Not being a man much accustomed to examining his feelings he could not have said whether this sudden
despondency was due to the imminent return to his long-abandoned home city or the prospect of leading so many untried soldiers into battle.
I should have stayed simple , he reflected. Ambition was the root of this. He might not even be on this troop-train if he had not pushed his way to the front when they were calling for
officers. I’m not commander material. I know it. But the men of Collegium had instantly
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