come sit beside me. She follows, but is hesitant. She sits but doesn’t look me in the eyes and I want to reach out to her, but I fear her damn rejection. Against my better judgment, I bring my hand up and lay it on top of hers. I feel her eyes linger on the spot where my hand is but I can barely keep my breath in check. Touching her damn well knocked the wind out of me.
“Keegan, are you okay?” she finally asks.
Great. I probably look like a damn stalker with how I’m staring at her. Get your shit together, Key! “Yup, I’m fine. I wanted to talk to you about everything… I just…” She interrupts me and I want to be mad, but the sound of her voice makes everything else go away. At least until I actually hear the words coming out of her mouth and then I begin to panic.
“Keegan, it’s fine. You’re with Sarah or something. I understand you don’t remember me; we can still be friends, of course. That is, if you still want to be my friend.” I don’t know what’s going on but my heart and body aren’t listening to my head.
I grab her by the sides of her face and crash my lips against her. She tastes so damn sweet. God, she’s perfect. I hear her moan lightly against my lips and I swear that’s the sexiest sound I’ve ever heard. I crave it and want more of it. I take my chance and deepen the kiss, tracing my tongue along her bottom lip until she gives me access to her mouth. I dive in and claim what’s mine. What the hell? What’s mine? I feel her start to pull away but I don’t let her. I slip my arm around her back trying to give her everything I’ve got so that all this messed up shit doesn’t mean that I don’t get to see her again.
“Keegan…”
I feel her hands on my chest and I pull away. Her lips are shining and I want to immediately dive back in. Damn, this girl is addictive.
Deep down, I know all this shit is going to come crashing down. Shit never goes right with me and I will end up screwing it all up. I have a feeling I’ve done something before the accident to already make me lose this beauty that’s sitting here not even understand how goddamn beautiful she is. “God, I wish I could remember you.” I see a tear coming down her cheek and I wipe it away. “I wish I could give you what you want and it’s killing me that I can’t.” No truer words have ever been spoken. I want her. I want everything with her but I just know I won’t get it.
“Me too. Keegan. Me too.”
I can’t be who she wants and needs. I’m not that guy. I might have been before the accident, but whatever changed me to deserve this girl isn’t around anymore. I’m not that guy. I wish I were because it’s hard not to love her even though I don’t remember her. “Please don’t leave and stay away from me. I need you, and I want to remember, but if it doesn’t happen.. I still want to have you in my life anyways. I think it’s important. Please tell me you will stay.” I’m such a selfish prick.
“Keegan, I will always be in your life.” I feel my heart pick up but just like that, it comes crashing down again. She utters the words I dread hearing. “I’ll always be your friend.”
We talked about a few things, like me moving. She said she’d help and pack up what stuff is still left there and what is in her room of mine. I really want to ask her to let me go to her room but that will lead to no good and is not fair to her. I can’t give her everything she wants, no matter how much I want to. I can tell this space between us is killing her like it is me. She’s going to leave. I can feel it before she even says it.
“I have to get back, but I will call you, okay? My number is in your phone if you need anything, Keegan. Just call me.”
I nod and as she steps to the door, I feel the panic. I then ask the one thing I’m dying to know.
“Bec, wait!” She turns and I see that it hurts to hear me call her that too but I just can’t manage to call her Becca. It doesn’t feel
“Keegan, are you okay?” she finally asks.
Great. I probably look like a damn stalker with how I’m staring at her. Get your shit together, Key! “Yup, I’m fine. I wanted to talk to you about everything… I just…” She interrupts me and I want to be mad, but the sound of her voice makes everything else go away. At least until I actually hear the words coming out of her mouth and then I begin to panic.
“Keegan, it’s fine. You’re with Sarah or something. I understand you don’t remember me; we can still be friends, of course. That is, if you still want to be my friend.” I don’t know what’s going on but my heart and body aren’t listening to my head.
I grab her by the sides of her face and crash my lips against her. She tastes so damn sweet. God, she’s perfect. I hear her moan lightly against my lips and I swear that’s the sexiest sound I’ve ever heard. I crave it and want more of it. I take my chance and deepen the kiss, tracing my tongue along her bottom lip until she gives me access to her mouth. I dive in and claim what’s mine. What the hell? What’s mine? I feel her start to pull away but I don’t let her. I slip my arm around her back trying to give her everything I’ve got so that all this messed up shit doesn’t mean that I don’t get to see her again.
“Keegan…”
I feel her hands on my chest and I pull away. Her lips are shining and I want to immediately dive back in. Damn, this girl is addictive.
Deep down, I know all this shit is going to come crashing down. Shit never goes right with me and I will end up screwing it all up. I have a feeling I’ve done something before the accident to already make me lose this beauty that’s sitting here not even understand how goddamn beautiful she is. “God, I wish I could remember you.” I see a tear coming down her cheek and I wipe it away. “I wish I could give you what you want and it’s killing me that I can’t.” No truer words have ever been spoken. I want her. I want everything with her but I just know I won’t get it.
“Me too. Keegan. Me too.”
I can’t be who she wants and needs. I’m not that guy. I might have been before the accident, but whatever changed me to deserve this girl isn’t around anymore. I’m not that guy. I wish I were because it’s hard not to love her even though I don’t remember her. “Please don’t leave and stay away from me. I need you, and I want to remember, but if it doesn’t happen.. I still want to have you in my life anyways. I think it’s important. Please tell me you will stay.” I’m such a selfish prick.
“Keegan, I will always be in your life.” I feel my heart pick up but just like that, it comes crashing down again. She utters the words I dread hearing. “I’ll always be your friend.”
We talked about a few things, like me moving. She said she’d help and pack up what stuff is still left there and what is in her room of mine. I really want to ask her to let me go to her room but that will lead to no good and is not fair to her. I can’t give her everything she wants, no matter how much I want to. I can tell this space between us is killing her like it is me. She’s going to leave. I can feel it before she even says it.
“I have to get back, but I will call you, okay? My number is in your phone if you need anything, Keegan. Just call me.”
I nod and as she steps to the door, I feel the panic. I then ask the one thing I’m dying to know.
“Bec, wait!” She turns and I see that it hurts to hear me call her that too but I just can’t manage to call her Becca. It doesn’t feel
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