whiskey. He sipped and set the glass down furiously, nearly breaking his glass on the counter. “My time is valuable. I gave up playing games when I was a child. If you want to be here…be here. If you don’t…then go.”
“I said I was mature enough to handle this. It’s just difficult.” I tilted my head back in dissatisfaction.
“How is it difficult?”
“Do you know what it’s like to be fall for someone only for them to throw you out like garbage?” I tried fighting the tears, but it was no use. A tear fell to the floor. “Every guy, every last one I gave my all to and they treated me like shit. They all talked that ‘baby I’m different’ line and I fell for it. I fell for them and they all fucked me over.” I regained control over my emotions. “This is just sex, but I’ve drawn the line in the sand. I’m not nineteen years old anymore. And I know that’s where this is headed. Any day now I’m gonna fall asleep in your arms only to be woken up three hours later with my bags packed and your assistant handing me a plane ticket back home. Back home to a cold bed.”
“I’m sorry that you had to go through that, Natasha.” His voice softened.
“It’s all I’ve known.” I sniffled my nose and cleared my throat. “But, I bet you wouldn’t know a thing about that now would you. I know for certain you’ve never been in love before.”
“Not possible.” All visible emotion instantly drifted away from his face.
“Why?” My voice was whimsical, despite knowing the answer.
“I’m young and wealthy. You don’t get to this level without sacrifice. Unfortunately, this level requires an inordinate amount of commitment. I’m committed to success. There isn’t any time left for a commitment to a woman.”
“There’s always time for love.” My eyes filled with naiveté.
“Stick around and you’ll see my life isn’t for the faint of heart. I swim in an ocean of sharks.” He smirked to himself. “Matters of the heart are an afterthought.”
“Maybe you just haven’t met the right one.” I pursed my lips and inched closer to him, grabbing his beefy bicep. Though I barely knew him, I felt safe with him – protected.
“Perhaps. But for the moment, casual sex suits me just fine.”
This was not a time in my life where a casual, sexual relationship was something I was willing to pursue. I needed depth. I needed someone who ached at the thought of being away from me; someone who would fall to the floor and grab my leg if I thought about stepping out of the door. I didn’t want a life of someone’s secretary calling me to pencil me in for a lunch date three Wednesday’s after net. But the fact remained – I wasn’t able to elude Victor’s grasp on me.
“It doesn’t suit me at all.”
“I’m well aware.” His nonchalant demeanor was maddening. I clenched my sweaty fist tightly.
“Then why am I here?” My voiced raised an octave higher.
He took a sip, much slower than the last. “That’s a question you shouldn’t ask me.”
My mind raced from every direction. It wasn’t like he was hiding anything. The pursuit of sex was there from the beginning. In fact, they were the first words he spoke to me. I should have known better. I stood there and said nothing.
“Natasha,” he said I’m not a robot. I’m not devoid of feelings.”
“It sure seems like it.” I swallowed hard, trying not to let sadness envelop my face.
“You have no idea, Natasha.” He turned and faced me. His eyes became chained with mine. “The day’s I don’t see you, you’re all I think about.” I clenched my jaws together so my mouth wouldn’t fall to the floor. “I can tell you’re different. You’re not taken aback by the private jets and the hotel suites. It doesn’t matter to you. You could care less about it. That’s what I like about you.”
What he liked about me? “I thought this was just about sex?”
“It is. But how could you have sex with someone and not develop
“I said I was mature enough to handle this. It’s just difficult.” I tilted my head back in dissatisfaction.
“How is it difficult?”
“Do you know what it’s like to be fall for someone only for them to throw you out like garbage?” I tried fighting the tears, but it was no use. A tear fell to the floor. “Every guy, every last one I gave my all to and they treated me like shit. They all talked that ‘baby I’m different’ line and I fell for it. I fell for them and they all fucked me over.” I regained control over my emotions. “This is just sex, but I’ve drawn the line in the sand. I’m not nineteen years old anymore. And I know that’s where this is headed. Any day now I’m gonna fall asleep in your arms only to be woken up three hours later with my bags packed and your assistant handing me a plane ticket back home. Back home to a cold bed.”
“I’m sorry that you had to go through that, Natasha.” His voice softened.
“It’s all I’ve known.” I sniffled my nose and cleared my throat. “But, I bet you wouldn’t know a thing about that now would you. I know for certain you’ve never been in love before.”
“Not possible.” All visible emotion instantly drifted away from his face.
“Why?” My voice was whimsical, despite knowing the answer.
“I’m young and wealthy. You don’t get to this level without sacrifice. Unfortunately, this level requires an inordinate amount of commitment. I’m committed to success. There isn’t any time left for a commitment to a woman.”
“There’s always time for love.” My eyes filled with naiveté.
“Stick around and you’ll see my life isn’t for the faint of heart. I swim in an ocean of sharks.” He smirked to himself. “Matters of the heart are an afterthought.”
“Maybe you just haven’t met the right one.” I pursed my lips and inched closer to him, grabbing his beefy bicep. Though I barely knew him, I felt safe with him – protected.
“Perhaps. But for the moment, casual sex suits me just fine.”
This was not a time in my life where a casual, sexual relationship was something I was willing to pursue. I needed depth. I needed someone who ached at the thought of being away from me; someone who would fall to the floor and grab my leg if I thought about stepping out of the door. I didn’t want a life of someone’s secretary calling me to pencil me in for a lunch date three Wednesday’s after net. But the fact remained – I wasn’t able to elude Victor’s grasp on me.
“It doesn’t suit me at all.”
“I’m well aware.” His nonchalant demeanor was maddening. I clenched my sweaty fist tightly.
“Then why am I here?” My voiced raised an octave higher.
He took a sip, much slower than the last. “That’s a question you shouldn’t ask me.”
My mind raced from every direction. It wasn’t like he was hiding anything. The pursuit of sex was there from the beginning. In fact, they were the first words he spoke to me. I should have known better. I stood there and said nothing.
“Natasha,” he said I’m not a robot. I’m not devoid of feelings.”
“It sure seems like it.” I swallowed hard, trying not to let sadness envelop my face.
“You have no idea, Natasha.” He turned and faced me. His eyes became chained with mine. “The day’s I don’t see you, you’re all I think about.” I clenched my jaws together so my mouth wouldn’t fall to the floor. “I can tell you’re different. You’re not taken aback by the private jets and the hotel suites. It doesn’t matter to you. You could care less about it. That’s what I like about you.”
What he liked about me? “I thought this was just about sex?”
“It is. But how could you have sex with someone and not develop
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