Noelâs Mum, for a day. Then sheâs got a right to be vexed. âI ainât lying, Mum! Brothers I went to school with are on that but not me.â
âYou better not be lying, Dennis. Selling weed can lead you to all kinds of crap youâd never believe. I still donât understand why these boys attacked you. Were you teasing them, Dennis? You know I never liked you teasing other kids at school. I taught you to appreciate good clothes if you have them but
not
to go on like a puppy show in a suffererâs face. Didnât I tell you that, Dennis?â
âYeah you did tell me. I donât do them things anymore, Mum.â
She then caught me in a fierce gaze, searching my eyes for any clues of insincerity. The intensity of her stare forced the back of my head deeper into my pillow. âIâll ask you again, Dennis. Are you dealing?â
âNo, Mum. Itâs like I said, Iâm not on that.â
Suddenly she got up and went towards the door. âIâll check on you in about an hour. Try to get some rest.â
I let out a long sigh. Then I worked my mind over to see if I had left any incriminating evidence in my room. Rizla papers, half cigarettes and little bags of skunk weed for my private use. Iâm sure I had been careful. I didnât even dare smoke fat-heads in my room when everybody was in bed. Maybe Davinia said something. She once caught me smoking a zoot in the park when I was with Noel. No, she wouldnât say anything. She knows whatâs good for her.
For the next few days I was expecting Mum to burst into my room with an oz of weed in her hand and my fingerprints all over it. She never did but my suspicion of her knowing something deepened because she was being extra-nice to me. She even bought me a new mobile! It was much better than the old one. It was slimand cool and didnât look like a brick. I wasted no time in showing Davinia my new toy and she went off in a sulk chatting something about I didnât deserve it. I couldnât wait to show it off to the poor-assed ghetto kids in youth clubs.
That same day, Noel came around in the evening. As Mum showed him in she was being over-polite to him, asking how Cara was and the rest of the family and all that shit. Mum was always extra-polite when she didnât like someone. As for Noel he looked like someone had just farted in his face. Brooding was an understatement⦠I took him upstairs to the privacy of my room âcos it was obvious he had some shit on his mind.
As I closed the door behind me, Noel took two hundred and fifty pounds out of his back jeans pocket and threw it on my bed. It was wrapped neatly in an elastic band. âYour share,â he said. âWhile youâve been honey-trapped Iâve still been on road making dollars.â
âThanks for that, bruv,â I said. âAppreciate it.â
Refusing to sit down as he usually did in the chair by my bed, Noel kinda fidgeted on the spot, looking uneasy. âSpill it out, bruv,â I urged. âWhatâs on your mind?â
He pointed a finger at me, stopped shuffling his feet and said, âYou!â
âWhat do you mean, me?â
âPeople been chatting,â he explained. âHow you got honey-trapped by some bitch from Peckham ends. Itâs not good for our rep, bruv. Some brothers been laughing about it, saying that you and me are pussies. I ainât tolerating that.â
âLet them chat, bruv,â I said. âWhat do they know?â
âIs that all you can say? Let them chat? Do you think weâre gonna have any mileage in the skunk game if man on road thinks weâre pussies? Every Tom, Dick and Jezebel are gonna test us, gonna try and jack us. And I ainât stepping on road with that shit over us. I want my rep back.â
âIâve been thinking, bruv,â I said. âMaybe itâs time for me to get out of this business. Weâve had a