myself that I was just in a foul mood because Iâd stayed up so late. âMom,â I said, âwhy donât you shoot those sweats and put them out of their misery?â
She laughed as if I were joking. âIâll just duck down and drop you,â she said, smiling. âIâll circle the block and no one at the doughnut shop will know you even have a mother. Howâs that?â
I rolled my eyes at her and she laughed harder.
I thought of Renéeâs picture-perfect mother. Hair, makeup, nails, clothes. My mom could be much, much prettier than Renéeâs mom, if sheâd only spruce herself up a bit. But Mom dragged herself out of bed in the morning and pulled on the same sweat suit sheâd worn the day before.
Whenever I said anything about the bagged-out knees or the baby-food stains, she just laughed and said something like, âWell, I guess my career as a cover girl is over!â As if caring about her looks would be ridiculous.
But Iâd seen pictures of her before she had me, and she was really beautiful. She could have been a cover girl if sheâd wanted to. But no, she decided to have babies. Lots of babies. I just didnât get it.
Brianna got it, though. The way she coochie-cooed the twerps, I bet she was going to have tons of kids. I could just see her calling on me to help the way Momâs friend Joanne was always calling on her. âCandace! I have a cold. Could you drive my kids all over town, then stop and pick up some groceries and fix us lunch?â
I felt my skin get hot. I had no intention of ending up like my mother, Caretaker of the Universeâtaking care of everyone but herself. Iâd say, âNo, Brianna. You breed âem, you feed âem!â I laughed out loud and my mom smiled over at me.
âNickâs game will probably go until about two-thirty,â she said. âBut I expect Daddy home by one. So, really, youâll only be on duty about an hour or so. Okay?â
âWhatever,â I said.
âThanks,â Mom said, patting my leg.
I wanted to say, âMom! You could have done anything with your life! You were so cute! You even got good grades!â But instead I said, âYou have a big knot in your hair in the back.â
My mom reached up and raked at it with her fingers. I wondered if she was going to go to my botherâs soccer game like that. Probably.
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M Y LITTLE SISTER, LENA, knew something was wrong and was dying to know what had happened. But my folks kept shushing her and sending her out to play with Ann. I could see that Momma was aching for me, and that made me feel even worse. She made waffles, my favorite, but I couldnât eat.
I climbed as high as I could in the persimmon tree out back and wished I could just keep climbing forever, let the world shrink away to nothing beneath meâmy house, my school, my ex-friends becoming nothing more than an anthill underfoot. Or that I could just spread my wings and soar away.
My foot slipped and I had a split-second sensation of falling. I caught myself and froze, hugging the trunk of the tree until my heart calmed down.
Then I realized that if Iâd fallen, everyone would think Iâd jumped. If Iâd died from the fall, theyâd think it was suicide. The girls would be sure Iâd killed myself over them ! I could imagine how important that would make them feelâthat they could hurt me so badly that Iâd think my life wasnât worth living. Theyâd mourn and act sad, but deep inside theyâd feel great that they were so powerful.
I climbed down very, very carefully, branch by branch.
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C ANDACE CALLED ME when she got home from Sunday school. She said her mom had taken her bother to his soccer game, leaving Candace on duty with the twerps. She asked if Iâd come over and help, seeing as I was their honorary auntie.
I said Iâd love to. I loved the twins and I loved, loved,
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