gulped down his fears and ignored his raging heart. “It isn’t faire for me to expect you to accept this ridiculous situation, just because I want you to.” Even with her face in deep shadows he could see she was dismayed.
“You’ve changed your mind? Have I said something to upset you?”
“No, of course not! It isn’t faire to expect you to endure the weight of…marriage with a man you’ve never met. I’m not a brute. If you desire an an…” Adam groaned as his heart threatened to explode. “…if you desire…”
“An annulment?”
“If you desire one…you may have it.”
“But you don’t want one?”
“No.”
“So you’d be happy if I chose to remain your wife?”
“Yes! I’m sure you’ll need time to decide…”
She appeared to pause as the clock chimed a quarter past and then turned her eyes back to his shadow. “I’ll stay.” Adam was struck speechless as his heart jumped for joy and dragged him back to her chair as she turned back to finish her dinner.
Creeping up behind her, he ran his hand through her hair. “You will? Why?”
“Why not?”
“You must have a reason.”
“You appear to be a decent sort of demon. If I must be sold off like chattel it might as well be to a decent madman. Who knows what I might feel in a few years; I may even become fond of your heart. The poor creature is certainly suffering neglect.”
Clutching handfuls of hair to his chest, Adam kissed the top of her head as his heart purred with pleasure. “May my heart come to you tonight?”
“Not tonight, I’m tired…” Adam grimaced as his heart theatrically drooped in disappointment. “…besides, I think it’s only faire that I know what my husband looks like before I allow him his conjugal rights. The footman could slip into my bed in the dark and whisper sweet nothings. How would I know he wasn’t you?”
Adam groaned as his forehead came to rest against the top of her head. “I can’t let you see me. If you know what I look like before you love me, you won’t ever let me come to your bed; you won’t ever love me.”
“Adam, you have a scar on your face, not three eyes and four noses.”
“I’m not paranoid out of vanity; I know how ladies react on seeing…”
“I disagree.”
“You can’t disagree with my personal experiences.”
“Yes I can; how do you know the ladies who rejected your face didn’t like how you smelled? Did you always bathe before searching for company? Did you wear too much cologne? Perhaps the ladies didn’t like your hair. Perhaps they thought you had silly legs.”
“There’s nothing wrong with my legs or my hair.”
“Do you have your own teeth?”
“Most of them…I’m only thirty-seven!”
“Perhaps they thought your breath bad. Perhaps you’d just eaten onion soup. You may have emitted a decidedly unpleasant smell. Perhaps they thought you were wearing a hideous coat. Perhaps…”
“Ladies don’t share my bed out of charity.”
“Perhaps they thought you were parsimonious.”
“I paid what they asked!”
“How do you know they didn’t expect twice as much as you paid?” Adam clenched his teeth as he looked down at the serene head of hair beneath him. Was she trying to upset or comfort him? He was too irritated to tell as her face turned to the side outlining her profile against the firelight. “How do you know they weren’t feeling ill and were desperate for any excuse for an evening alone? You can never begin to know why someone decides to do something unless you’ve spent time as a fly on their wall and inhaled their most private thoughts. You’re my husband. If I think you the ugliest man in the world I may insist you come to me in the dark, but I wouldn’t deny you my bed; I find your touch quite pleasant.” Adam’s heart lurched to its feet in celebration as he flushed with pleasure. She found his touch quite pleasant? Merciful heavens, he could almost feel her lying in his