I don’t want to fight with you. I just want a divorce. I’ll take care of everything. As usual.”
I tried to stop shouting, “I know damn well you will! You are going to PAY for doing a horrible thing like this to ME!”
He got up to end the conversation. “I know what I will pay. I’ve already taken care of that. Keep the house. Keep your car. Keep your life. But you cannot keep me.” He turned and walked away and out of the house. Out of the beautiful life I had made for him. Why, he was nothing without me!
I shouted after him, crying. “My mother just died. How can you do such a thing to me on this day? You never have given a thought to how I feel.” He never did turn around. He was a selfish, unfeeling man. How had I missed seeing that in him? Some things must not be in psychology books!
I stood there a moment, trying to get a hold on my life. These people! Where did they come from? Don’t they have any feelings? For me? Today I buried my mother. I have lost my children to an evil bitch of a woman. I truly have to lose them now if Albert’s really gone, because I will not pay a lawyer all that money it would take to get them. I will have bills to pay as it is. I am losing my husband because he does not understand me. Does not realize all I have given up for him. All this has happened to me in one evil day.
My glass was empty. I filled it again. Lord knows, I truly needed a drink. I hoped I had brought enough with me to last me til I get home. I do not drink excessively. I am a lady of class and education and distinction. I have just had a hard, hard day. That’s the reason I needed a drink!
Oh! Home, home. I was so glad to get home. I thought Albert would call or come back when he missed me. I’d untie my tubes, have a baby to hold him. I did not want a divorce. They don’t like single women in my crowd. They always said “Her husband is a lawyer” when they introduced me without him there. So proud, my friends. That’s what makes me wonder who the gossip was. Who told him all those vicious lies? Someone jealous, I bet. Someone whose husband liked me. Someone who resented my looks, my clothes.
Albert did everything but call. He moved, but commuted to work in both offices. I got the house, my Mercedes, somerental property. But, now, I HAVE to work. Support myself. I tried to get Albert back, but he didn’t have sense enough to know he was trading a Doctor and the high life-style for a cemetery. Didn’t know what he was losing.
I decided to think of all I was gaining. Freedom to be me. Myself. At first it was fun. I invested some of my money in a new wardrobe, because I had to attract new men. A husband. Someone to take care of me I could be proud of when I went out with him at my side. I did look ever so good, I must say. Gorgeous.
But, people are so selfish, so chicken-shit. Some of the women I thought were my BEST friends began to be too busy to see me anymore. I used to have to search around to find someone of stature to have lunch with everyday. Those used to be the best gossip sessions! Now I bet they are talking about me when they get together. Because I am free and able to do whatever I want to. Jealous! I know they are!
A few of the men I use to see when I was married … they came around for awhile. But I know my value, so I quit calling them because I don’t have to beg. One of them was very close to me at one time, too. Reginal. I love that name. So aristocratic. I thought perhaps, if I got pregnant by him, he would marry me. He wasn’t much, just a city coordinator or something like that. Nothing special to make anyone take notice or be jealous. Still, he would be a husband! When I did, secretly, un-tie my tubes, I did get pregnant.
I thought it was a good idea to have a child. It seemed like children had been a help to Jana getting a man. When I told Reginal about the gift I was about to give him, he said it was a good thing I had a degree so I could take care of a baby,
I tried to stop shouting, “I know damn well you will! You are going to PAY for doing a horrible thing like this to ME!”
He got up to end the conversation. “I know what I will pay. I’ve already taken care of that. Keep the house. Keep your car. Keep your life. But you cannot keep me.” He turned and walked away and out of the house. Out of the beautiful life I had made for him. Why, he was nothing without me!
I shouted after him, crying. “My mother just died. How can you do such a thing to me on this day? You never have given a thought to how I feel.” He never did turn around. He was a selfish, unfeeling man. How had I missed seeing that in him? Some things must not be in psychology books!
I stood there a moment, trying to get a hold on my life. These people! Where did they come from? Don’t they have any feelings? For me? Today I buried my mother. I have lost my children to an evil bitch of a woman. I truly have to lose them now if Albert’s really gone, because I will not pay a lawyer all that money it would take to get them. I will have bills to pay as it is. I am losing my husband because he does not understand me. Does not realize all I have given up for him. All this has happened to me in one evil day.
My glass was empty. I filled it again. Lord knows, I truly needed a drink. I hoped I had brought enough with me to last me til I get home. I do not drink excessively. I am a lady of class and education and distinction. I have just had a hard, hard day. That’s the reason I needed a drink!
Oh! Home, home. I was so glad to get home. I thought Albert would call or come back when he missed me. I’d untie my tubes, have a baby to hold him. I did not want a divorce. They don’t like single women in my crowd. They always said “Her husband is a lawyer” when they introduced me without him there. So proud, my friends. That’s what makes me wonder who the gossip was. Who told him all those vicious lies? Someone jealous, I bet. Someone whose husband liked me. Someone who resented my looks, my clothes.
Albert did everything but call. He moved, but commuted to work in both offices. I got the house, my Mercedes, somerental property. But, now, I HAVE to work. Support myself. I tried to get Albert back, but he didn’t have sense enough to know he was trading a Doctor and the high life-style for a cemetery. Didn’t know what he was losing.
I decided to think of all I was gaining. Freedom to be me. Myself. At first it was fun. I invested some of my money in a new wardrobe, because I had to attract new men. A husband. Someone to take care of me I could be proud of when I went out with him at my side. I did look ever so good, I must say. Gorgeous.
But, people are so selfish, so chicken-shit. Some of the women I thought were my BEST friends began to be too busy to see me anymore. I used to have to search around to find someone of stature to have lunch with everyday. Those used to be the best gossip sessions! Now I bet they are talking about me when they get together. Because I am free and able to do whatever I want to. Jealous! I know they are!
A few of the men I use to see when I was married … they came around for awhile. But I know my value, so I quit calling them because I don’t have to beg. One of them was very close to me at one time, too. Reginal. I love that name. So aristocratic. I thought perhaps, if I got pregnant by him, he would marry me. He wasn’t much, just a city coordinator or something like that. Nothing special to make anyone take notice or be jealous. Still, he would be a husband! When I did, secretly, un-tie my tubes, I did get pregnant.
I thought it was a good idea to have a child. It seemed like children had been a help to Jana getting a man. When I told Reginal about the gift I was about to give him, he said it was a good thing I had a degree so I could take care of a baby,
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