because he couldn’t help me. Said he didn’t even knowif it was his! What did he think I was!? He said he had other plans and marriage wasn’t in them. Can you imagine that? A city coordinator with a chance to marry a Social Psychologist, a Doctor, saying it was not in his plans? That’s why he isn’t anything! He has no sense of getting ahead in life! I left him alone right then. I had to … remove that baby too. A single woman can’t be so encumbered. I never would get a man with a baby laying, slobbering, in my arms.
Besides I plan to get my own children back when they are grown and can appreciate me.
But listen! Jana did it again! I was hearing rumors when I had to go home to see about that property of mine. It seems Jana and Albert are together pretty steady. He is even investing in a business for her! Her divorce is final and she is the marrying type. The slick kind of woman that sets a scheme and makes it work. I know her! I, also, know Albert is the marrying kind. When he likes a woman, he sticks to her. Why he ever got a divorce from me, I’ll never know. I complemented his role in life. Probably some lies Jana told him because she wanted him for herself. I hear he deluges her with flowers, candy and gifts. Many gifts. Why? He never did that for me! She probably tricks him in some way for that!
But, times change and I know things will get better as soon as I meet more people and they find out who I am and what kind of person I am. I do have a degree in psychology. A Doctorate!
I go out, now, with a few ordinary working women sometimes. They are nothing much. Just company sometimes, when they are not going out with their “ordinary men.” Isimply cannot go out with just an ordinary man, that is beneath me. I just can’t. I won’t! I deserve more.
I can’t understand what is wrong! Is it the times?
The men don’t come.
My mother is dead. I don’t have anyone.
I get along, tho. I am a smart, modern woman. However … I am just a little tired of being pawed by one-night stands. If you go all the way, you never know if it will be good or not! It is mostly not! Further, most of them do not have the decency to call back. They eat your food, listen to your music, drink all your liquor, ask you to do all kinds of things. Then, you never hear from them again.
It galls me when I hear how good Albert is to Jana. He never was to me! I hear they may marry. Two fools, maybe they deserve each other.
I know one thing, tho. I am smart, I have a degree and I am gorgeous. I will find another man who is somebody bigger than Albert! There is someone out there who will love me, marry me.
God forbid, I may have to be alone. Awhile.
You know … Fate has ever been unkind to me. Always … cruel and unkind. People like I am, are always done this way. Fate is so unfair to us. To me.
LATER: ALONE
The little lady had paid for an invitation to this swank affair. She pulled her slightly worn-looking mink coat closer around her, even in the sweltering heat of the day. Shelooked gorgeous. Inside the grand room prepared for a luncheon she lifted a drink from a tray, moved toward a table with her name on it, looked over the crowd to see which man was looking at her. None at the moment. She sat down, in her elegant practiced way … to think about her presence, her future and her hair. Thought many evil thoughts because people never did her right. Cried inside her mind because people never did her right.
Soon … others like her joined her. Both men and women. Both with too much makeup, to cover puffy, alcoholic or drug-abused faces. They drank together, but seldom looked at each other unless along with a snide remark. Their faces were turned away from their own table toward the rest of the crowded, busy room. Looking. Seeking.
All each alone, even together.
She never misses these things because she does not want to be a waste of time, nor does she want to waste time. Time is passing fast. It’s
Besides I plan to get my own children back when they are grown and can appreciate me.
But listen! Jana did it again! I was hearing rumors when I had to go home to see about that property of mine. It seems Jana and Albert are together pretty steady. He is even investing in a business for her! Her divorce is final and she is the marrying type. The slick kind of woman that sets a scheme and makes it work. I know her! I, also, know Albert is the marrying kind. When he likes a woman, he sticks to her. Why he ever got a divorce from me, I’ll never know. I complemented his role in life. Probably some lies Jana told him because she wanted him for herself. I hear he deluges her with flowers, candy and gifts. Many gifts. Why? He never did that for me! She probably tricks him in some way for that!
But, times change and I know things will get better as soon as I meet more people and they find out who I am and what kind of person I am. I do have a degree in psychology. A Doctorate!
I go out, now, with a few ordinary working women sometimes. They are nothing much. Just company sometimes, when they are not going out with their “ordinary men.” Isimply cannot go out with just an ordinary man, that is beneath me. I just can’t. I won’t! I deserve more.
I can’t understand what is wrong! Is it the times?
The men don’t come.
My mother is dead. I don’t have anyone.
I get along, tho. I am a smart, modern woman. However … I am just a little tired of being pawed by one-night stands. If you go all the way, you never know if it will be good or not! It is mostly not! Further, most of them do not have the decency to call back. They eat your food, listen to your music, drink all your liquor, ask you to do all kinds of things. Then, you never hear from them again.
It galls me when I hear how good Albert is to Jana. He never was to me! I hear they may marry. Two fools, maybe they deserve each other.
I know one thing, tho. I am smart, I have a degree and I am gorgeous. I will find another man who is somebody bigger than Albert! There is someone out there who will love me, marry me.
God forbid, I may have to be alone. Awhile.
You know … Fate has ever been unkind to me. Always … cruel and unkind. People like I am, are always done this way. Fate is so unfair to us. To me.
LATER: ALONE
The little lady had paid for an invitation to this swank affair. She pulled her slightly worn-looking mink coat closer around her, even in the sweltering heat of the day. Shelooked gorgeous. Inside the grand room prepared for a luncheon she lifted a drink from a tray, moved toward a table with her name on it, looked over the crowd to see which man was looking at her. None at the moment. She sat down, in her elegant practiced way … to think about her presence, her future and her hair. Thought many evil thoughts because people never did her right. Cried inside her mind because people never did her right.
Soon … others like her joined her. Both men and women. Both with too much makeup, to cover puffy, alcoholic or drug-abused faces. They drank together, but seldom looked at each other unless along with a snide remark. Their faces were turned away from their own table toward the rest of the crowded, busy room. Looking. Seeking.
All each alone, even together.
She never misses these things because she does not want to be a waste of time, nor does she want to waste time. Time is passing fast. It’s
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