glasses off and sitting back in his high back chair.
“Yeah, but I know it will never work.”
“Why is that?” he asked.
“She’s married and already has children,” I said.
I thought I would be ashamed once I said it out loud, but surprisingly, I wasn’t. It actually felt good and like a weight was taken off of my shoulder.
“Does she now?”
He was starting to frustrate me. I just wanted him to go ahead and tell me something to help me understand all that I was feeling.
“Dad, I don’t know what to do,” I said, getting up and walking to the back of the room.
“Have you told Jewel how you feel yet?” He asked, causing me to spin around so fast I almost fell.
“Wait. How do you know that’s who I’m talking about?”
I couldn’t remember a time where I had done anything inappropriate around or to her, so I was lost at how he knew.
“Your eyes,” was his simple response. I’m sure the confusion was displayed all over the place, but I couldn’t help it. I was dumfounded. “You know how everyone says that we look so much alike?”
I simply nodded my head and wondered what that had to do with anything. He must have known that’s what I was thinking because he started to explain himself.
“I remember the first weekend you came home after going off to college, and you told us that you think your found your wife,” he said, bringing back the memory. I didn’t realize I was smiling at the thought until he said, “That same smile you have right now is the same one you had when you told us about her and the same look I had when I met your mother. When I set eyes on my good thing I knew she was the one. That’s how your mother and I knew Jewel was the one for you.”
“Mom knows?”
“Of course. She’s always wanted the two of you together.”
“But she’s married, and that goes against God,” I said to him.
“Has that stopped you before?” My mother said, coming into the room and startling me.
She kissed me on my head and went over to sit on my father’s lap. There was that look that he was talking about. It’s crazy because that’s the same way that I admired Jewel but from a distance. But I didn’t know what she was getting at. I knew personally what she meant, but I had no clue how she found out. I had been so careful.
“Ma, what do you mean has that stopped me before?”
God knows I prayed for forgiveness. She dropped her head to the side like that dude Foxy who waits for people at “da doe”.
“Just what I said. It hasn’t stopped you before, so why are you letting it stop you now when clearly this is meant to be?”
“I’m still lost.”
“Baby, Ray Charles, Stevie Wonder and the Three Blind Mice can all see that Kammy is your daughter. You, Jewel, and Andrew seem to be the only ones that don’t see it. Or maybe you all are in denial,” she said, bursting my bubble.
It never crossed my mind that anyone would see the resemblance between me and Kam. The whole nine months Jewel carried her I was a nervous wreck. I didn’t know if she was going to look just like me or if she would look like Drew. I just knew that we couldn’t hold that secret for long, but once she entered the world and I saw how Drew seemed to fall in love with my daughter, I backed off.
Maybe that was the reason that I couldn’t hold in what Drew was doing behind her back. I wanted to be able to raise my daughter and be with the woman I loved.
“Baby, listen,” my mother said, coming over to sit beside me as she took my hand in hers. “You can’t help who it is that you fall in love with, and although you and Jewel made a mistake, I’m pretty sure the both of you have repented and asked God for forgiveness. He has already done that. Now it’s time for you to move forward. Jewel doesn’t deserve to be treated the way that she is and neither do those girls, but now, it’s time for you to help pick up the pieces and mend their broken hearts.
I’m not saying go over there right
“Yeah, but I know it will never work.”
“Why is that?” he asked.
“She’s married and already has children,” I said.
I thought I would be ashamed once I said it out loud, but surprisingly, I wasn’t. It actually felt good and like a weight was taken off of my shoulder.
“Does she now?”
He was starting to frustrate me. I just wanted him to go ahead and tell me something to help me understand all that I was feeling.
“Dad, I don’t know what to do,” I said, getting up and walking to the back of the room.
“Have you told Jewel how you feel yet?” He asked, causing me to spin around so fast I almost fell.
“Wait. How do you know that’s who I’m talking about?”
I couldn’t remember a time where I had done anything inappropriate around or to her, so I was lost at how he knew.
“Your eyes,” was his simple response. I’m sure the confusion was displayed all over the place, but I couldn’t help it. I was dumfounded. “You know how everyone says that we look so much alike?”
I simply nodded my head and wondered what that had to do with anything. He must have known that’s what I was thinking because he started to explain himself.
“I remember the first weekend you came home after going off to college, and you told us that you think your found your wife,” he said, bringing back the memory. I didn’t realize I was smiling at the thought until he said, “That same smile you have right now is the same one you had when you told us about her and the same look I had when I met your mother. When I set eyes on my good thing I knew she was the one. That’s how your mother and I knew Jewel was the one for you.”
“Mom knows?”
“Of course. She’s always wanted the two of you together.”
“But she’s married, and that goes against God,” I said to him.
“Has that stopped you before?” My mother said, coming into the room and startling me.
She kissed me on my head and went over to sit on my father’s lap. There was that look that he was talking about. It’s crazy because that’s the same way that I admired Jewel but from a distance. But I didn’t know what she was getting at. I knew personally what she meant, but I had no clue how she found out. I had been so careful.
“Ma, what do you mean has that stopped me before?”
God knows I prayed for forgiveness. She dropped her head to the side like that dude Foxy who waits for people at “da doe”.
“Just what I said. It hasn’t stopped you before, so why are you letting it stop you now when clearly this is meant to be?”
“I’m still lost.”
“Baby, Ray Charles, Stevie Wonder and the Three Blind Mice can all see that Kammy is your daughter. You, Jewel, and Andrew seem to be the only ones that don’t see it. Or maybe you all are in denial,” she said, bursting my bubble.
It never crossed my mind that anyone would see the resemblance between me and Kam. The whole nine months Jewel carried her I was a nervous wreck. I didn’t know if she was going to look just like me or if she would look like Drew. I just knew that we couldn’t hold that secret for long, but once she entered the world and I saw how Drew seemed to fall in love with my daughter, I backed off.
Maybe that was the reason that I couldn’t hold in what Drew was doing behind her back. I wanted to be able to raise my daughter and be with the woman I loved.
“Baby, listen,” my mother said, coming over to sit beside me as she took my hand in hers. “You can’t help who it is that you fall in love with, and although you and Jewel made a mistake, I’m pretty sure the both of you have repented and asked God for forgiveness. He has already done that. Now it’s time for you to move forward. Jewel doesn’t deserve to be treated the way that she is and neither do those girls, but now, it’s time for you to help pick up the pieces and mend their broken hearts.
I’m not saying go over there right
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