away my stubbornness and let her words sink in. She pulls away from me, just enough to look into my eyes, before she continues. “ Beck knows your heart. He knows what you want and he isn ’ t telling you no. Beck also knows his own heart. So does God. Above all else, you must know that God has your best interests at heart. I believe you ’ ve snagged yourself a wonderful young man who loves the Lord and walks with Him as faithfully as he can. I can only hope that if he isn ’ t ready, that means God isn ’ t ready for you to be married, either. You ’ ve got to have more trust — in Beckham and in the Lord. ”
She ’ s right. I know she ’ s right. I know she ’ s right because while there are still tears in my eyes, I feel calmed by her reminders — by the truth. I need to trust that feeling I get in my gut, the one that tells me that if we choose each other, God will bless our union. He already has. I know in my heart that Beckham is a gift so carefully crafted and bestowed. I also need to trust the man that I love — trust that his promises are true and that he ’ s looking at marriage from the driver ’ s seat … which is exactly where I want him to be, in the role of leader. It ’ s where God has called him to be. Just because things might not turn out the way that I think they should doesn ’ t mean that I should doubt him.
“ Thanks mom, ” I murmur, reaching up to dry my cheeks. “ I needed to hear that. ”
“ You ’ re welcome. You ’ re always welcome, ” she says, giving my shoulders a squeeze. “ I ’ m here for you any time. Don ’ t forget that God is, too. He wants to hear you confess your fears just as much as I do — more even. When you do, you open the door for Him to take them and replace them with the peace only He can provide. ”
“ Yeah, ” I sigh. I understand what she ’ s saying, but I also know there is one other person who can make me feel better about the whole situation, if I just allow myself to be completely honest with him. Tomorrow. I ’ ll make sure we talk about it tomorrow.
I had every intention of leaving Fort Collins right after my last class. I told my mom she could except me around six — but it ’ s a little after seven when I pull in front of our house. There ’ s a reason I ’ m late. I ’ ve been distracted thinking about it the whole drive. Still, I can ’ t help but spend another minute behind the wheel lost in my thoughts.
Grayson comes home with me quite often. Unless it ’ s the middle of football season, if I ’ m headed home for the weekend, so is he. He doesn ’ t have any family of his own — well, not family by blood that he wishes to associate with — but he ’ s practically been adopted by my parents. So, when he told me he wasn ’ t planning on leaving town with me this weekend, I was a little surprised. Then I found out that Mrs. Davis was going to be in town. Upon hearing the news that Jack ’ s mom was going to be around, I was kind of disappointed that I wouldn ’ t be. We love it when Jack ’ s mom comes to visit — mostly because she ’ s always in our kitchen hooking us up with homemade meals like none-other. Seriously, I don ’ t know how anything so delicious could come out of our small kitchen, but she never fails to deliver.
Jackson ’ s family lives in Georgia so it ’ s a bit of a trek for his mom to come out. I thought it was kind of odd timing, considering finals week is coming up and it would have made more sense for her to come out the following week, but I didn ’ t really think too much about it. Then, just when I was getting ready to leave the apartment, Jackson offered the explanation I wasn ’ t anticipating. He asked me to stay for a minute longer and called Gray into the room so that he could make his announcement.
He ’ s going to propose to Claire.
The Davis family is pretty well off. Jackson is fortunate enough to be a trust-fund baby. Yet, despite where he comes from, you
She ’ s right. I know she ’ s right. I know she ’ s right because while there are still tears in my eyes, I feel calmed by her reminders — by the truth. I need to trust that feeling I get in my gut, the one that tells me that if we choose each other, God will bless our union. He already has. I know in my heart that Beckham is a gift so carefully crafted and bestowed. I also need to trust the man that I love — trust that his promises are true and that he ’ s looking at marriage from the driver ’ s seat … which is exactly where I want him to be, in the role of leader. It ’ s where God has called him to be. Just because things might not turn out the way that I think they should doesn ’ t mean that I should doubt him.
“ Thanks mom, ” I murmur, reaching up to dry my cheeks. “ I needed to hear that. ”
“ You ’ re welcome. You ’ re always welcome, ” she says, giving my shoulders a squeeze. “ I ’ m here for you any time. Don ’ t forget that God is, too. He wants to hear you confess your fears just as much as I do — more even. When you do, you open the door for Him to take them and replace them with the peace only He can provide. ”
“ Yeah, ” I sigh. I understand what she ’ s saying, but I also know there is one other person who can make me feel better about the whole situation, if I just allow myself to be completely honest with him. Tomorrow. I ’ ll make sure we talk about it tomorrow.
I had every intention of leaving Fort Collins right after my last class. I told my mom she could except me around six — but it ’ s a little after seven when I pull in front of our house. There ’ s a reason I ’ m late. I ’ ve been distracted thinking about it the whole drive. Still, I can ’ t help but spend another minute behind the wheel lost in my thoughts.
Grayson comes home with me quite often. Unless it ’ s the middle of football season, if I ’ m headed home for the weekend, so is he. He doesn ’ t have any family of his own — well, not family by blood that he wishes to associate with — but he ’ s practically been adopted by my parents. So, when he told me he wasn ’ t planning on leaving town with me this weekend, I was a little surprised. Then I found out that Mrs. Davis was going to be in town. Upon hearing the news that Jack ’ s mom was going to be around, I was kind of disappointed that I wouldn ’ t be. We love it when Jack ’ s mom comes to visit — mostly because she ’ s always in our kitchen hooking us up with homemade meals like none-other. Seriously, I don ’ t know how anything so delicious could come out of our small kitchen, but she never fails to deliver.
Jackson ’ s family lives in Georgia so it ’ s a bit of a trek for his mom to come out. I thought it was kind of odd timing, considering finals week is coming up and it would have made more sense for her to come out the following week, but I didn ’ t really think too much about it. Then, just when I was getting ready to leave the apartment, Jackson offered the explanation I wasn ’ t anticipating. He asked me to stay for a minute longer and called Gray into the room so that he could make his announcement.
He ’ s going to propose to Claire.
The Davis family is pretty well off. Jackson is fortunate enough to be a trust-fund baby. Yet, despite where he comes from, you
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