engaged?â
âWhatâs that?â
âYou and Miss Brewster. How long have you been engaged to be married?â
âOh . . . not very long.â
âHave you set a wedding date?â
âIâd say that now it very much depends on two people.â
âTwo people?â
âYou . . . and Wolf Riker.â
âWell, thereâs not much more I can do. Most of my effort on her behalf is already done. As for Wolf Riker, Iâd say thatâs largely between you and him.â
âDo you think I have a better chance than . . .â
âThan what?â
I pointed to the empty plate.
âThereâs a fundamental difference between you and that beast. You have brains.â
âYouâre the second one whoâs mentioned that to me.â
âWho was the first? Surely not Cookie.â
âNo. It was Simpson.â
âWell, thatâs good counsel. I hope he takes it, too.â
âTell me something, doctor.â
âMore counsel?â
âNo. How is it that someone like you . . . educated . . . skilled . . . a doctor, is in the company of a man like Riker on a drive like this?â
âYour description omitted one word . . .â
âWhat word?â
âDrunkard.â He went on speaking in a colorful monotone. âYouâre here quite by accidentâyou and your fiancée. Mine is a different story. A long story.â
âIâd like to hear it. If you donât mind.â
âNo. I donât mind. I said itâs a long story. But Iâll give you the abbreviated rendition if youâre sure you care to listen.â
âYes, Dr. Picard. I would.â
âThen it begins during the war. Dr. Miles Picard, the city of San Francisco, prestigious, prospering, if not yet prosperous. Never more than a drink or two during the eveningâand after years and years of study and sacrifice, and yes, loneliness, in love with a beautiful, young lady, Catherine Graham, engaged to be married, like you and Miss Brewster.
âBut the war was going badly for the North, so badly that the Confederates, led by Lee and his generals, mostly West Point graduates, seemed invincible, winning battle after battle: Fort Sumter, Lexington, Belmont, Shiloh, Fort Royal, Bull Runâwith Union casualties mounting every month and week and day and hour, without nearly enough doctors to save the lives of the sick and wounded.
âI believed that even one more doctor could make a difference. I also believed that a woman would wait, but a war wouldnât. Catherine begged me not to go, or, at least to marry her before leaving. But no, I felt that would be unfair to her if I didnât come back.
âAnd so I enlisted as a doctor in the Medical Corps.
âSherman said that âwar is hell.â No one knew that better, or more bitterly, than a battlefield doctor tending hundreds of causalities on both sides, amputating arms, legs, sometimes arms and legs, trying to stop the bleeding amid screams of agony and the smell of death in so-called operating rooms at the front lines. And sometimes there were no lines. Yesterdayâs victory turned into todayâs defeat.
âBut as time went on there were more victories than defeats for the Union. Still the casualties mounted and the doctors sought relief for those casualties and for themselves. Analgesics. Morphine. Whiskey. Anything to get the wounded and the doctors through the endless operations.
âAnd then the letter came. Another casualty. This one not in the battlefield. More than a thousand miles away. A deadly fever had struck San Francisco and her family wrote that Catherine was among the dead.
âAnd in a way so was I.
âIf I had been there I might have saved herâand others. There werenât enough doctors.
âSomehow I found enough strength or courage or determination to go on. But unfortunately, I found that strength or courage or
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