on the map. His fingernail was as large and convex as a watch crystal and, surprisingly, polished. The nail made a slight sound on the paper as it passed up and down the trails. As their heads bent close over the map, she could not hear him breathe in but his exhalations came out whistling and strong as a bellows. The sight of his large polished nail on the map and the sound of his breathing so diverted her that she could not collect her thoughts.
âI know where old Judge Kempâs summer place used to be. He used to come up here when I was a boy. I even worked in his greenhouse.â
âGreenhouse?â she said drowsily.
âHis daddy got the idea a long time ago of growing orchids and selling them to the rich people at the old Grove Park Inn where they used to have dances every night.â
âThatâs him,â she said but not really remembering.
âThis is where it used to be.â The gleaming watch-glass fingernail strayed off a trail into a blank space.
âUsed to be?â
âIt burned down years ago.â
âIt all burned?â
âThe main house. Must have been bums or hippies living out there. Ainât nobody been out there for years.â
âShow me how to get there.â After she said it, she realized she had said it. She had uttered not a question, not a statement, but a request. How long had it been since she had said to someone: Do this, do that? Perhaps the secret of talking was to have something to say.
âTake this trail.â The watch-glass nail glided, hesitated, then stopped like a Ouija in a white space. âItâs just the other side of the golf course.â
âHow far is it from here?â
âThree, four miles.â
âDo you mind telling how old you are?â It would help if she knew whether he was forty-five or sixty-five. But he went on nodding and didnât reply. Her question, she saw, was inappropriate, but he let it go.
Instead he looked at her and said: âAre you going to stay out there?â
âYes. Itâs my place.â
âBe careful, young lady.â
âWhy?â
âHippies and bums stay out there. Last summer a lady gotâhurt. Just keep your eyes open.â
âAll right.â
He rose.
âItâs a nice walk. Have a nice day.â
âWhat?â She was puzzled by the way he said it, in a perfunctory way like goodbye. But what a nice thing to say.
But he only repeated itââHave a nice dayââand raised a finger to the place where the brim of his hat would have been. He returned to his street corner.
After marking the trail with her Scripto pencil and making an X in the blank space, she folded the map carefully with the marked trail on the outside and stuck it in the breast pocket of her shirt. Opposite the Gulf station she stopped and looked down at her boots. They felt stiff. She went into the rest room, tore three coarse tissues from the roll above the washbasin, put the toilet seat lid down, sat and took off her boots, removed the can of neatâs-foot oil from her knapsack and oiled her boots, using the entire can. Carefully she disposed of the oil-soaked paper and empty can. She washed and dried her hands.
In the street her boots felt better, light and strong yet pliable as suede. There was a small pleasure too in getting rid of the can. She meant to live with very few things.
Passing a drugstore window, she noticed a display of Timex wristwatches. Perhaps she should own a watch. Else how would one know when it was time to get up, eat meals, go to bed? Had there ever been a time in her life when she did not eat a meal when mealtime came? What if one did not? Who said one had to get up or eat meals at a certain time?
After a moment she shrugged and shouldered her NATO knapsack, this time using both straps, and walked on. The distributed weight felt good on her shoulders. For the first time in her life, she felt that it, her life,
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