doctor gave you six months. Terminally ill,â I replied.
âYes, six months.â Breath whistled through his nose. âSix months can be as full of grace as sixteen years.â
âCould be less,â I cut in.
He nearly kicked the bowl off of his bed. âCould be more!â
If he expected a suicidal colonel to see the glass as half-full, he was mistaken. I reached back into my bag and felt for the smooth gloss of photographs. I fanned them in one hand and plucked out the first; names and notes were written on the backs. I held a picture of Cordell Hayward.
âEleven children.â
His eyes narrowed, but he said nothing.
âCordell, twelve years oldâloves art and musicâwants to be a fireman.â
I let it drop to the stone floor, revealing Jake Altman.
âJake, eleven years oldâparticularly good at spelling even though heâs dyslexic, wants to be a writer.â
Alistair Dexter broke my heart. In the photo, he worked a piano with an intense, very adult concentration. He was engulfed by a tuxedo, and I suspected that the piece he played was powerful.
âAlistair, twelve years oldâstaged his own play this year in front of church, a monologue about saving the Earthâyou can catch it on YouTube.â
âI know what youâre trying to do,â Charlie said, and his color deepened.
âNathanialâprefers Nate, eleven-years-old, heâs a competitive swimmer, father beats him, and Nate takes it out on the water, swimming two hours a day.â
âPlease,â he pointed to the door.
But I didnât stop talking even as I moved toward the exit. My voice lifted over his pleas, my tone growing shrill, like a Sunday morning preacher trying to bring a congregation to a feverish pitch; I rattled off the childrenâs names. When my hand touched the doorknob, he shouted.
âGet out!â
Then he wilted, the strength leaving him, and he sagged into the rough woolen covers.
I hated myself. âHillar McCallum slowly drains the blood of his victims and then tears their eyes out. Weâve never found any of the eyes.â
âGet out,â he whispered.
âMaybe he actually does take their spark, too.â I shrugged. âYouâd know better than I.â
âGet out â¦â
âIâll be back in an hour,â I replied. âThat is two percent of what these children have left.â
Outside the cell, I leaned heavily against the door. Footfalls echoed down the cloisterâs stone corridor. Someone had been listeningâthe general wouldnât like that. I ran fingers through my hair, palm grazing my cheek, numb with scar tissue. I pulled my hand quickly back as if burned.
The weight of my request struck. Secret government agencies, a demand to suicide, tacit confirmation of an afterlife, talking to the dead ⦠it was a lot to swallow. Charlieâs decision couldnât be easy. The general said everyone had his price, and I wondered what Charlie wanted more than the months of pain he had remaining.
Dusk streamed through the arched windows that looked out upon a garden. Pebbled paths circled a gnarled tree, and on a branch, a goldfinch sang. I shuffled to rest against the cool sill of a window and leaned into the garden, smelling the rich, humid air.
âAre you prepared to die today?â I asked the bird. It angled its head and hopped further along the branch. I wondered just what I was trying to prove to myself. Music and the flicker of candlelight meandered through the waxen leaves of the tree. Coaxed by the light and the desire for distraction, I walked around the quad and stopped at a twin set of doors leading to the chapel.
Beneath the vaulted frame, one door was ajar. I pressed my palm against the thick, iron-studded wood and leaned in. A rare dual monastery that shared the chapel if not the cloister, the monksâ and nunsâ chanting echoed without accompaniment, a
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