never given us that impression, but I still wonder sometimes.
“Me too, Dad ... me too.”
“Lex, let me speak to Ash for a sec.”
“Okay.” I walked to Ashley’s door and knocked.
“Yeah!” I heard Ashley yell from behind the door.
“Dad wants you on the phone.” As soon as I heard her pick up I hung up my phone.
I walked to the bathroom and started the shower. About five minutes into the shower I figured out where I knew the guy in the cafeteria from.
Chapter 5
Back In Baltimore ...
Shawn
Loose Ends
April 3rd 8:02 P.M.
“Whew,” I blew out a nice strong breath after I hung up the phone with Ashley and Alex. “Children!”
I sat back in my chair, real hard. I was in my office as usual going over bills and such. Alex was the mild one, the one I really didn’t have to worry about. I’m sure he has his problems and all, but he knows how to stay focused and keep it moving. Now Ashley, on the other hand, is a whole different story. After I found out that she had a lesbian relationship, I have tried to keep a closer eye on her. I must admit I spoiled her because I thought she may have needed more attention when it came to her reaching out for same-sex contact. It had an adverse effect. She became accustomed to my coddling and now she doesn’t want to work for anything. The entire time we were on the phone talking she was giving me attitude and blowing her breath as if I was wasting her time. I just hoped and prayed that she didn’t turn out to be like her James. I could have inadvertently triggered something in her that would cause her to act out. I prayed that I didn’t, but I knew that it was possible.
On the other hand, I had Alex there to monitor her, and if she did become out of hand I am sure he would report to me any and all odd occurrences.
On another note, Wallace, James’s boyfriend, just up and disappeared on me. I was sort of a confidant and counselor to him when he needed to talk. He kept asking me questions about James that I didn’t know and some questions I knew answers to, but couldn’t divulge because it was giving away the secret of me and James being sexually involved. I don’t know why I didn’t tell him about us. Well, I did. I just wasn’t ready to tell me yet. I was attracted to him and the more I would talk to him the more I would fantasize about him and me together. I have been having steady counseling sessions with my pastor and a licensed therapist and I was making major headway, now that he was gone. I have told Mona about him; well, I didn’t tell her he was gay. I just said I was helping him out on a case brought against him. Another lie I would have to pay for, for sure. I am glad he is gone and I don’t have to deal with him or look at him. My pastor and therapist both said that I would need to have minimal contact with anyone that was “in the life,” to assure that I would stay abstinent. I agreed.
“Forgive me, God,” I said as I looked up to heaven. “I need some help tying up these loose ends in my family.” I got down on my knees and began to pray.
Chapter 6
Wallace
Remember When ...
April 4th 9:34 A.M.
It was a pretty normal day as I woke up in my apartment in Culver City. A nice, plush neighborhood that was quiet and laid back just like I liked it.
I laid in my bed on Saturday morning thinking about homeboy from the cafeteria yesterday. He looked awfully familiar. He looked just like a miniature James to be exact.
“Shit! Shit! Shit!” I sat up in bed as painful memories invaded my mind. I threw my dreads in a makeshift ponytail, slid into my slippers, threw on my robe and made my way toward my bathroom. I stopped, turned and looked at my bed. Half of the bed was still undisturbed.
“Baby, you supposed to be sleeping next to me.” I walked up to a picture of James and me after we got married, which was on the nightstand on his side of the bed and picked it up. Tears slipped out of my eyes and down my cheek.
“Me too, Dad ... me too.”
“Lex, let me speak to Ash for a sec.”
“Okay.” I walked to Ashley’s door and knocked.
“Yeah!” I heard Ashley yell from behind the door.
“Dad wants you on the phone.” As soon as I heard her pick up I hung up my phone.
I walked to the bathroom and started the shower. About five minutes into the shower I figured out where I knew the guy in the cafeteria from.
Chapter 5
Back In Baltimore ...
Shawn
Loose Ends
April 3rd 8:02 P.M.
“Whew,” I blew out a nice strong breath after I hung up the phone with Ashley and Alex. “Children!”
I sat back in my chair, real hard. I was in my office as usual going over bills and such. Alex was the mild one, the one I really didn’t have to worry about. I’m sure he has his problems and all, but he knows how to stay focused and keep it moving. Now Ashley, on the other hand, is a whole different story. After I found out that she had a lesbian relationship, I have tried to keep a closer eye on her. I must admit I spoiled her because I thought she may have needed more attention when it came to her reaching out for same-sex contact. It had an adverse effect. She became accustomed to my coddling and now she doesn’t want to work for anything. The entire time we were on the phone talking she was giving me attitude and blowing her breath as if I was wasting her time. I just hoped and prayed that she didn’t turn out to be like her James. I could have inadvertently triggered something in her that would cause her to act out. I prayed that I didn’t, but I knew that it was possible.
On the other hand, I had Alex there to monitor her, and if she did become out of hand I am sure he would report to me any and all odd occurrences.
On another note, Wallace, James’s boyfriend, just up and disappeared on me. I was sort of a confidant and counselor to him when he needed to talk. He kept asking me questions about James that I didn’t know and some questions I knew answers to, but couldn’t divulge because it was giving away the secret of me and James being sexually involved. I don’t know why I didn’t tell him about us. Well, I did. I just wasn’t ready to tell me yet. I was attracted to him and the more I would talk to him the more I would fantasize about him and me together. I have been having steady counseling sessions with my pastor and a licensed therapist and I was making major headway, now that he was gone. I have told Mona about him; well, I didn’t tell her he was gay. I just said I was helping him out on a case brought against him. Another lie I would have to pay for, for sure. I am glad he is gone and I don’t have to deal with him or look at him. My pastor and therapist both said that I would need to have minimal contact with anyone that was “in the life,” to assure that I would stay abstinent. I agreed.
“Forgive me, God,” I said as I looked up to heaven. “I need some help tying up these loose ends in my family.” I got down on my knees and began to pray.
Chapter 6
Wallace
Remember When ...
April 4th 9:34 A.M.
It was a pretty normal day as I woke up in my apartment in Culver City. A nice, plush neighborhood that was quiet and laid back just like I liked it.
I laid in my bed on Saturday morning thinking about homeboy from the cafeteria yesterday. He looked awfully familiar. He looked just like a miniature James to be exact.
“Shit! Shit! Shit!” I sat up in bed as painful memories invaded my mind. I threw my dreads in a makeshift ponytail, slid into my slippers, threw on my robe and made my way toward my bathroom. I stopped, turned and looked at my bed. Half of the bed was still undisturbed.
“Baby, you supposed to be sleeping next to me.” I walked up to a picture of James and me after we got married, which was on the nightstand on his side of the bed and picked it up. Tears slipped out of my eyes and down my cheek.
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