If she hadnât been so weak, she would have succeeded. She must have come all the way on foot.â
He seemed too exhausted himself to go on pacing. His red-rimmed eyes made him look ill, and his hands trembled. How long had he been without decent sleep or peace? Two weeks? When he sat down on the opposite end of the sofa, Linden turned so that she could continue to study nun. In the back of her mind, she began trying to conceive some way to give him a sedative.
âSince then,â he sighed, âBerenford and I have been taking care of her. I got him into this because heâs the only doctor I know. He thinks Iâm wrong about her, but heâs helping me. Or he was. Until he got you into this.â He was too tired to sound bitter. âIâm trying to reach her any way I can, and heâs giving her drugs that are supposed to clear her mind. Or at least calm her so I can feed her. I leave the lights on in there all the time. Something happens to her when sheâs alone in the dark. She goes berserkâIâm afraid sheâll break an arm or something.â
He fell silent. Apparently he had reached the end of his storyâ or of his strength. Linden felt that his explanation was incomplete, but she held her questions in abeyance. He needed aid, a relief from strain. Carefully she said, âMaybe she really should be in a hospital. Iâm sure Dr. Berenfordâs doing what he can. But there are all kinds of diagnostic procedures he canât use here. If she were in a hospitalââ
âIf she were in a hospitalââhe swung toward her so roughly that she recoiledââtheyâd keep her in a straitjacket, and force-feed her three times a day, and turn her brain into jelly with electroshock, andfill her up with drugs until she couldnât recognize her own name if God Himself were calling for her, and it wouldnât do any good! Goddamn it, she was my
wife
!â He brandished his right fist. âIâm still wearing the bloody ring!â
âIs that what you think doctors do?â She was suddenly livid; her failure made her defensive. âBrutalize sick people?â
He strove to contain his ire. âDoctors try to cure problems whether they understand them or not. It doesnât always work. This isnât something a doctor can cure.â
âIs that a fact?â She did not want to taunt him; but her own compulsions drove her. âTell me what good
youâre
doing her.â
He flinched. Rage and pain struggled in him; but he fought them down. Then he said simply, âShe came to me.â
âShe didnât know what she was doing.â
âBut I do,â His grimness defied her. âI understand it well enough. Iâm the only one who can help her.â
Frustration boiled up in her. âUnderstand
what?
â
He jerked to his feet. He was a figure of passion, held erect and potent in spite of weakness by the intensity of his heart. His eyes were chisels; when he spoke, each word fell distinctly, like a chip of granite.
âShe is possessed.â
Linden blinked at him. âPossessed?â He had staggered her. He did not seem to be talking a language she could comprehend. This was the twentieth century; medical science had not taken
possession
seriously for at least a hundred years. She was on her feet. âAre you out of your mind?â
She expected him to retreat. But he still had resources she had not plumbed. He held her glare, and his visageâcharged and purified by some kind of sustaining convictionâmade her acutely aware of her own moral poverty. When he looked away, he did not do so because he was abashed or beaten; he looked away in order to spare her the implications of his knowledge.
âYou see?â he murmured. âItâs a question of experience. Youâre just not equipped to understand.â
âBy God!â she fumed defensively, âthatâs
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