Ultimate Weapon by Shannon McKenna Page A

arthritic fingers together. “Vajda.”
    The heavy, preaching way that he pronounced the name made Val brace himself. “Don’t call me that,” he repeated grimly. “I told you.”
    Imre waved his hand, impatient. “When I die, you must—”
    “You’re not going to die,” Val cut in.
    “Don’t be childish,” Imre said sternly. “Let me finish. When I die, do not expose yourself again to come here and bury me. Mourn my death in any way you like—from a distance. I will be safe and happy with Ilona and Tina. Swear it, Vajda.”
    Val sprang to his feet, rattling the teacups on the cluttered table, inexplicably furious. “No,” he said. “I swear nothing, to anyone.”
    Imre stared at him. His grim mouth was swollen and scabbed at the corner from the split, battered lip his attackers had given him.
    Val stalked into the foyer, shrugged on his coat, seething. Imre did not come out of the kitchen to bid him good-bye. It was just as well. There was nothing more to be said, and if Val spoke at all, he would start shouting. He ran down four flights of steps and out into the frigid night air. Snow was falling thickly, just like the night he’d met Imre.
    Images rushed unpleasantly back when he saw the black BMW idling on the curb, the driver an anomymous dark shadow. The lock popped as he approached. His stomach clenched. For a horrible half-second, he was eleven years old again, shivering on the curb.
    No choice but to get in, and go wherever the car took him.
    He hesitated. Detach . He was not that helpless boy anymore.
    He spat into the gutter, yanked open the back door and got in. He was big, strong. He wore fine clothes, had an expensive haircut, good shoes, a cashmere coat, money in his pocket and far more in the bank. He’d forgone his guns tonight because they distressed Imre, but he had the knives. He had years of fight training. Eyes in the back of his head.
    No, he was far from defenseless. Few people on earth were better equipped for that. And still, getting into that fucking car felt like climbing into a fucking crocodile’s mouth.
    Fortunately, that phase of his life hadn’t lasted long. He got his growth fast, and became too big, too scary looking for Kustler’s stable. But they found other uses for him soon enough, on the heroin supply chain.
    He hated dealing drugs, with his mother’s track marks and hollow eyes haunting him. He had found her body one day when he was eleven years old, sprawled on the bathroom floor. Choked by her own vomit.
    That was the same day that fuckhead Kustler, his mother’s pimp, had come by, looked him over and decided that all was not lost. Vajda was unfortunately dark-complected, but pretty even so. Kustler had decided that the son would do nicely to take over his mother’s job.
    He flinched from the memory of that day.
    Yes, he hated drugs. But one did not say no to Daddy Novak, or to anyone who answered to him. Not if one liked staying alive.
    Though “like” was perhaps the wrong word. He had clung to life out of spite. Staying alive was a fuck-you to the world. Anger kept him alive. Imre had been the only one to show him something beyond it.
    It was ironic how the best way to protect Imre would be to not care about him at all. Whatever Val dared to care about was liable to end up dead on the bathroom floor. The more he cared, the higher the probability. He wished he could detach completely. Just float away.
    The snow fell thickly now, flakes fluttering through the air, obscuring the cityscape until it was a blank, swirling no-man’s-land. Val stared out the car window, trying to orient himself with childhood landmarks. Each one he identified sparked bleak memories.
    As he grew older, without really meaning to, he’d come to the attention of Gabor Novak, the big boss, having distinguished himself as a bright young man with unusual language skills and an aptitude for computers. Useful as Novak’s business expanded and went global. Soon he was exiled from