A Life Plan Without You. by Christine Wood Page A

spotted you and now I want to thank
you...” He leant towards me and kissed me again, wow thanks
gratefully received! He is very wordy and eloquent, I could listen
to him all night but I heard that right though he needs me, what
as, a personal trainer or a life coach what?
    “Thanks
for dancing like an idiot into your life? Umm thanks for the thanks
it was my pleasure I think?” I want more of those kisses
please.
    “By the way you looked damn hot doing it too, whether you were
wearing trainers or not! I laughed so loudly I thought you’d seen
me, especially when you took them off and threw them in the bushes.
Then I laughed even more when you realized your socks were mucky
and you cursed yourself as you freed them from the spider filed
bushes. You hated looking in bushes trying to find your trainers;
after you did I presumed you’d checked them for spiders? Well from
the way you banged them hard against the wall and inspected them,
shaking them vigorously before hurriedly putting them back on,
there were no unwelcome occupants?
    Michelle I laughed so much in the space of that one single
hour, more in fact than I had done in the whole previous three
years combined, and all watching you! You
were so free from worry and stress when you finally got your dance
right, I wanted to rush over, spin you around and say well done and
thanks for bringing a smile back to my face. I figured you’d freak
a little, so I didn’t!”
    “Oh cheers so you were laughing at me, my dirty socks, my
trainer toss and my fear of the eight legged monsters then? Them
and moths are my only fears!
    So you want to be happy now and with me? Why what was so wrong
with your old life, that’s made you so unhappy? A girl, money
troubles, oh God you’re not a gambler are you, do you do drugs or
any stupid shit that could get you arrested?”
    “Laughing with you not at you Michelle! No to the gambling, a
definite no to drug taking. I do nothing illegal and nothing that
would harm you in any way, but yes girls and being constantly drunk
were a problem, though I am not an alcoholic either, I’m or was
just a weekend and social over drinker, but the weekend drinking
used to be harsh and often involved an alcoholic fuelled amnesic
day, I spent most of my Sundays in bed recovering, trying to
remember what I did!
    My life had been rapidly spiralling out of control for over
three years, I did some things I wasn’t particularly proud of,
nothing illegal I might remind you, but doing those things made me
change into a person I never thought I would be, never in a million
years did I set out to be the heartless, mean bastard I’d become. I
didn’t know how to take back control of my life. The bad part of me
was stronger than the good person I wanted to be! You made me stop and just think about being happy
instead of miserable all the time. I don’t know what changed me
watching you, but I did. My life changed that day, perhaps your
happiness was catching, who knows?
    Seeing you that day was like…? Any explanation I give you now
will sound cheesy; you see I can’t explain what it was like seeing
you for the first time? It was like a light had gone on in a dark
room and I could finally see things clearer for the first time in
quite a while. I wanted to be like you relaxed and happy, I watched
you as you danced and cursed yourself and tried again and again
until you got it right, it was wonderful to see you dancing and
laughing, you were I thought either really funny or had a screw
lose!” I laughed, as I looked at him he smiled back!
    “I didn’t think you were a nutter I just knew you looked like
you could be fun to be with and I thought we could perhaps have
some of that fun together. I was there watching and waiting for
Jimmy on the wrong day and headed to the path and saw you instead.
It was like we’re meant to meet and to be here like this now, I
don’t know why I fell so hard for you and I don’t know if it’s for
you, us I mean, you going