let her go, the moment I feel her last breath, as vividly as I remember that gush of bloodand love I felt as I heard her first cry, as I first saw her, tiny and twisted and perfect, wailing to raise the moon.
Ashes to ashes. Blood to blood. Cries to silence.
SIMON
It was cold outside the emergency-room doors but sheltered from the wind and the rain. A small crowd had gathered around the garbage can, and the air was thick with smoke.
âCan I buy a cigarette from someone?â I asked the group in general. âA cigarette and a light?â
A kid near me, no more than sixteen or seventeen, wearing a plaid flannel coat, fumbled for his pack. âHere,â he said, handing me the du Mauriers, waving away the dollar I held out to him. âTake a couple.â It was only when he turned to share the flame from his lighter that I saw that his face was a mess of blood, most of it coming from a jagged wound near his hairline. His right eye was swollen shut, his cheek scraped raw and bloody.
âThanks,â I said, inhaling the first lungful of smoke, handing him back the cigarettes.
âNo sweat.â He seemed remarkably composed for someone whose shirt was crisp with dried blood. Shock, probably.
The girl with him, a pretty blond in tight jeans and a denim jacket, looked more concerned.
âAre you all right?â I asked him, the nicotine rushing through me.
He seemed puzzled by the question. âOh yeah. Just a little spill off my bike.â He lit a cigarette for himself and offered the pack to the girl, who waved it away. âWhat about you?â
I shook my head. âNot me. Itâs my daughter. She got hit by a car. A truck, actually.â
âThe one on the news?â the girl asked.
I nodded. âSherry.â
âOh shit, man, thatâsââshe shook her headââI donât know.â
âI know.â
âDid the police get the guy?â She was wearing glittery silver lip gloss, and her cheeks were pink.
âWhat guy?â the boy asked, looking between us.
âI told you inside,â the girl said. âThe guy who hit hisâwho hit Sherry. He just took off. The police are looking for him and everything.â
The boy stared at me and took another drag off his cigarette. âOh wow, man. If it were me Iâd fuckinâ kill that guy. Thatâs just, I mean, sheâs just a little kid.â
âThree,â I said. âSheâs three.â
âThatâs sick, man. I tell ya, Iâd kill him. And thereâs not a jury that would convict me.â
âYeah,â I said.
My cell phone rang as I was taking another drag. I didnât need to check the number to know who it was.
KAREN
Simon came back just before nightfall. No sunset tonight, no warm orange glow, just a slow darkening of the rain, the sky, the room.
âHow are you?â he asked when he saw me looking at him.
I shrugged.
âI brought food.â He set the bags on the swing table next to the bed. âAnd coffee.â
I tried to smile. âThank you.â
He leaned over the bed and smoothed back Sherryâs hair, careful to avoid the bandages.
âYou missed the doctor,â I said.
âWhat did he have to say?â he asked without looking up.
âNot Dr. McKinley. Dr. Tompkins. A specialist.â
He straightened up. âAnd?â
I couldnât do any more than shake my head before bursting into tears. Simon came around the bed and held me until I stopped crying.
âSo nothing has changed,â he said, as he stepped away from me.
I nodded.
He busied himself with the food on the table.
âItâs not much.â
âWhat?â
âThe food. Itâs not much. Just doughnuts.â He shrugged, and I tried to think of where he might have found a doughnut shop nearby. âI thought we could get something from the cafeteria a little later.â
Eating was the last thing on my
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