trust in each other went so much deeper than what we could express but in our hearts, the truth was undeniable and compelling.
I hated I felt so strongly for him that the thought of what he’d done sickened me but at the same time, if he hadn’t done it, we would have had no protection when we visited Belfast to save my prodigal brother.
“How did everything go?” I finally found the nerve to ask as I began to undress and watched him do the same.
“I was voted in unanimously if that is what you’re asking about. My tat is going to be done tomorrow after breakfast, and we’ll be leaving for Northern Ireland as soon as we have more information on what the hell went down the night of that fucking call.”
Part of me found it hard to believe this was my beloved Lennon who was talking. He always had been so soft spoken and he’d never once made me fear him. The look in his blue eyes was pure ice; a menacing presence I’d never noticed before.
I knew he wouldn’t hurt me but I now knew how capable he was of hurting other people.
“I’m a stupid bitch…you know that?” I slid into a short slip of a nightgown and climbed into the comfortable bed as he locked the door and made his way over to me. “I had no idea what you were capable of and it was right there in front of my face the whole goddamn time. Tell me, did you know you would have to be voted in before we could look for my brother?”
Linx climbed on the bed before he straddled me and I didn’t do anything to fight him off or push him away.
“The thought crossed my mind. I know Dizzy is trying to reel in as much family as he can and I knew that he’d already taken your brother from the Bastards but I couldn’t say anything. This situation is so fucked up and I know I owed you an explanation but what the hell was I gonna say? If you knew as much as I did about the situation, you would’ve never agreed to come here. If you had any idea Dizzy would blackmail us and I would have to end up wearing a cut—”
“Yeah, you’re right because I didn’t sign up for this shit! I fuckin’ know why you did it but it doesn’t change the fact that I am still tied to the same motherfuckin’ situation I have tried to run from my whole life. I thought I would be safe with you but everything in my life is all fucked up and now I’ve dragged you down into my hell hole too.”
I shook my head. “There I was, judging Talia, and all along not knowing the man I was in love with would soon be a member of an MC too. If I wanted that kind of life, I would have hooked up permanently with a biker a long time ago but I never wanted this, Linx. And since when don’t I get to have an opinion? Your mind was made up before I could leave the bathroom. How is that fair to me?”
“What other choice did you want me to make, huh?” Linx rolled off of me and laid down on the bed beside me. “We both want your brother home safe and sound—so what if I have to wear the motherfuckin’ cut?”
“ It matters to me! ” I shrieked out in anger. “I don’t want to be in Talia or Syd’s position and I sure as fuck didn’t want to be an old lady. You know I will never leave you so that is all water under the bridge but I hate Dizzy took that choice away from me. He basically claimed you as his own and you know how it goes down. Rock star by day, biker by night—takin’ orders from that prick and everything is about the club. I’m not stupid, I know how it works and that’s why I never wanted this to be my life.”
Linx ran his fingers through his hair in frustration. “I know, babe, and if I could change everything that happened, don’t you think I would? Right now, the most important thing we can focus on is Trey. After that, you can scream and yell at me for being just what you didn’t want but let’s find your brother first before we have that conversation.”
I sat up in bed and this time, it was I who
I hated I felt so strongly for him that the thought of what he’d done sickened me but at the same time, if he hadn’t done it, we would have had no protection when we visited Belfast to save my prodigal brother.
“How did everything go?” I finally found the nerve to ask as I began to undress and watched him do the same.
“I was voted in unanimously if that is what you’re asking about. My tat is going to be done tomorrow after breakfast, and we’ll be leaving for Northern Ireland as soon as we have more information on what the hell went down the night of that fucking call.”
Part of me found it hard to believe this was my beloved Lennon who was talking. He always had been so soft spoken and he’d never once made me fear him. The look in his blue eyes was pure ice; a menacing presence I’d never noticed before.
I knew he wouldn’t hurt me but I now knew how capable he was of hurting other people.
“I’m a stupid bitch…you know that?” I slid into a short slip of a nightgown and climbed into the comfortable bed as he locked the door and made his way over to me. “I had no idea what you were capable of and it was right there in front of my face the whole goddamn time. Tell me, did you know you would have to be voted in before we could look for my brother?”
Linx climbed on the bed before he straddled me and I didn’t do anything to fight him off or push him away.
“The thought crossed my mind. I know Dizzy is trying to reel in as much family as he can and I knew that he’d already taken your brother from the Bastards but I couldn’t say anything. This situation is so fucked up and I know I owed you an explanation but what the hell was I gonna say? If you knew as much as I did about the situation, you would’ve never agreed to come here. If you had any idea Dizzy would blackmail us and I would have to end up wearing a cut—”
“Yeah, you’re right because I didn’t sign up for this shit! I fuckin’ know why you did it but it doesn’t change the fact that I am still tied to the same motherfuckin’ situation I have tried to run from my whole life. I thought I would be safe with you but everything in my life is all fucked up and now I’ve dragged you down into my hell hole too.”
I shook my head. “There I was, judging Talia, and all along not knowing the man I was in love with would soon be a member of an MC too. If I wanted that kind of life, I would have hooked up permanently with a biker a long time ago but I never wanted this, Linx. And since when don’t I get to have an opinion? Your mind was made up before I could leave the bathroom. How is that fair to me?”
“What other choice did you want me to make, huh?” Linx rolled off of me and laid down on the bed beside me. “We both want your brother home safe and sound—so what if I have to wear the motherfuckin’ cut?”
“ It matters to me! ” I shrieked out in anger. “I don’t want to be in Talia or Syd’s position and I sure as fuck didn’t want to be an old lady. You know I will never leave you so that is all water under the bridge but I hate Dizzy took that choice away from me. He basically claimed you as his own and you know how it goes down. Rock star by day, biker by night—takin’ orders from that prick and everything is about the club. I’m not stupid, I know how it works and that’s why I never wanted this to be my life.”
Linx ran his fingers through his hair in frustration. “I know, babe, and if I could change everything that happened, don’t you think I would? Right now, the most important thing we can focus on is Trey. After that, you can scream and yell at me for being just what you didn’t want but let’s find your brother first before we have that conversation.”
I sat up in bed and this time, it was I who
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