Lost In Our Darkness (Demons Of Darkness Book 2) by Elizabeth Hayes Page A

struggling to survive I would give everything I had to make sure she didn’t suffer ever in her life. I know that’s not the case though. She had a hard life ahead of her and for once I can forgive Trix for running while she was pregnant. I see now why she did it. Our son would never have a normal life but she tried to give it to him. She tried and now that she’s back, I want her to run again. I want Zoelle to run with our little girl. I want them to have a life that doesn’t involve my lifestyle. I picked this life but they didn’t, they were innocent and being in my life they would lose that innocence.
    Once I was sure she was okay I went back to check on Zoelle. She was lying in bed, the lights off. She looked up at me when I walked in.
    “Our baby?”
    “She’s okay Zoe.”
    “We need to name her.”
    I nodded.
    “I want to see her.” She pushed herself up into a sitting position and pushed the call button for a nurse.
    “Okay.” I helped her sit up. I knew she was worn out. But if I was her I wouldn’t be able to relax until I had seen our baby first. Me saying she was okay wasn’t good enough.
    The nurse rushed in. “What can I do for you?”
    “I need to see my baby.”
    “Okay but just a second, let me go get a wheelchair for you and then you can go see her.” She rushed back out the door and came back quickly pushing a wheelchair. I helped Zoelle stand up and then sit down in the chair as we waited for the nurse to move the IV bags to the wheelchair.
    “Okay let’s take you to your baby.” She pushed Zoelle down the hall to the NICU. I knew this was going to be hard for her. When we arrived next to our baby a nurse was there checking on her.
    “Oh you are just in time. I was just unhooking some of these tubes. She is doing really well. You have a little fighter here.” She finished what she was doing and then picked her up and placed her in Zoelle’s arms. Zoelle’s face lit up as she stared down at our daughter. My heart melted at the sight of them. I knew right in this moment that I loved them both. They were my girls and I would do everything I could to protect them. Even if it meant removing myself from their lives.
    “She’s beautiful.”  Zoelle smiled and pressed a kiss to our daughter’s head. “Calissta.” She looked up at me.
    “It’s beautiful just like our daughter.” I grinned as she handed her up to me. I didn’t know what I was doing. I missed all of this with Zaiden. I didn’t know how to be a father. I took her from Zoelle’s arms and held her close to me.
    “I don’t want to put her down but I need to go check on things.” I pressed a soft kiss on Calissta’s head and handed her back to Zoelle. The nurse had handed her a bottle so that she could feed her.
    “Stay with us just a little bit longer.” She looked up at me, her eyes begging me to choose her this once. I nodded yes. How could I say no? This was my family. I stayed with them as Zoelle held her. The nurse said that as soon as the doctor said it was okay she would bring the baby to Zoelle’s room so that they could be together.
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     

Chapter Eleven

     
    I sat on the floor between Payne’s legs as I played with Zaiden on the floor. Zaiden was giggling as he pushed his cars across the floor to me and I would push them back. He was crawling towards me when the door opened and everyone turned and yelled out congratulations. I helped Zaiden to his feet and held on to his hands as he got his bearings. I slowly let go of his hands as he stood there in one place clapping his hands. I got up and moved to the couch as Zaiden tried to take a step towards me. Stumbling he fell back on his butt. I picked him up and sat down on the couch next to Payne with Zaiden in my arms.
    Zaiden didn’t want to sit still and he wiggled out of my arms and crawled into Payne’s lap. I leaned over and picked up a toy truck and handed it to