Lost In Our Darkness (Demons Of Darkness Book 2) by Elizabeth Hayes Page B

Zaiden. Then I heard my name being called.
    “Trix.” I turned around to see Nix standing behind the couch. “I need to talk to you. My office.” I nodded and took Zaiden out of Payne’s arms and followed Nix.
    He shut the door behind us. I sat down on the couch as Nix paced the office.
    “What’s going on Nix?”
    “I get why you left now. I get why you wanted to have our son away from here. I get it Trix and I don’t blame you anymore.”
    “Nix, it didn’t matter. Even though I left it wasn’t any safer. I lived in fear everyday. I knew sooner or later something would happen. I should have never left. As much as I want to say this isn’t true, it is. I would have been safer here. Safer knowing someone had my back. Out there I was alone.” I paused. “Paranoid, and alone.”
    He looked at me and just nodded. "You sure coming back was a good idea?"
    I looked down at Zaiden and then back to Nix. "I just didn't know what to do. I lost one baby because of this club and I wasn't going to lose another. So I ran. When all along I would have been safer here. If I just would have told you everything, things would be different now. But I can't change that Nix. All I can do now is give you time with your son. Time you shouldn't have had to miss."
    "We have a lot of shit to work out Trix. Me and you. We need to sort this shit out."
    "Yeah Nix. But this time it's not just us."
    "I know."
    "We're a mess Nix. Me and you. I don't know what we were or what we are. I just know that we are a mess and we need to figure this out before we hurt each other or anyone else for that matter. I want you to get to know your son. I won't take him away from you again."
    Nix looked at both Zaiden and myself before he sat down next to me. He drug me into a one-armed hug pulling me closer to him.
    "I never told you this Trix but I want you to know—I love you. I have always loved you, I think even before you were ever mine. I was in love with you before you made me promise I wouldn't love you."
    I felt the tears start to build up and tried to blink them away. "I always knew Nix. I just didn't let myself accept it. I didn't know how you could love someone like me. I tried to make you hate me. I did. I tried. But I couldn’t say no to you. I still can't say no to you. And as much as I wouldn't let myself admit it, I fell in love with you too." I looked over at him. He leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to my lips. I parted my lips and let him kiss me. Let him kiss me like we both wanted. And then I pulled back. I wanted more than just a kiss from him but not while our son was in the room.
    "You promise you won't run away again Trix? Can you promise to stay and figure shit out with me. I can't lose you and our son. Not again."
    "I promise Nix."
    "I have to get back to the hospital. Tonight though, I think it's time I get to know my son."
    I closed my eyes and nodded. Hospital. Zoelle. His wife. His baby. I held back the tears that threatened to fall and stood up balancing Zaiden on my hip. Nix stood up with me and placed a kiss on Zaiden’s head before pulling me into a hug and pressing a deep kiss to my lips. When he pulled away I looked down and walked out the door. Fucking Nix. Why did things between us have to be so difficult. It was never easy between us. And I had a feeling it never would be. I walked straight to the bar and grabbed a beer and joined Nitro at the end of the bar.
    “How ya holding up Trix?” he asked between drinks of his beer.
    “Better, I think.”
    “That’s good. The old ladies still pretending that you’re not here?”
    “Of course.” I took a sip of my beer. “I can’t wait to get out of here. Even though I have no idea where I am going to stay.”
    “I told you my house is your house. I don’t stay there and it’s all redone now so you’re welcome to stay there.”
    “Thanks.”
     
     
     

    Everything was fucked up. I was in love with Trix and finally she admits that she loves me. After everything