have imagined. I can’t tell you how many times he refused to allow me to even sit and relax in a chair, preferring to make me take walks with him and obey him on my knees. I laughed at the time thinking the guy was nuts and an asshole for making me do something when I felt like shit. Hell, I was sucking his cock one time after I had vomited from the chemo. ”
“He really did that?” Jessie was surprised.
“And it was the best thing he could have done. Instead of concentrating on the disease and the pity I was falling into, he forced me to concentrate on my training with him. My life with him. I am amazed how much he helped me. I know I healed much faster because of what he did.”
“That’s a wonderful story.”
Nodding, Aimee darted a glance in her direction. “The truly amazing part was that for all of Wally’s bravado in public, he wasn’t a very good Dom. He had doubts about his strength and his abilities and we were floundering.”
“Sounds familiar.” A cold chill raced down Jessie’s spine.
“Exactly. I know you came here to find out what you could about Suzzana and I honestly don’t know anything. Whatever happened in his past is something private, but I can tell you this. What you’re seeing in Sir Luke has more to do with what every good Dom should go through. He’s questioning himself, not you, and he certainly doesn’t want another woman. He’ll reach his stride when he needs to and only the two of you will know when and why. Until then, know you’re going to face issues together and anger. You’re going to fight and you’re in particular going to struggle with pushing hard against his dominance. In turn he’s going to become much stricter, thinking that’s best. In time you’ll both learn your roles.”
The words weren’t just wise. They touched Jessie deeply. “How do you know so much if you haven’t lived the lifestyle before your time with Wally?”
“I do a lot of reading and I teach a course in couples practicing alternative lifestyles. You might enjoy joining in at some point, perhaps lending your voice to those just learning.”
Jessie sipped her tea. “But I am just learning and I seriously doubt I’d be a big inspiration given what we’ve going through.”
Aimee moved closer. “That’s not true at all. You have no idea how far you’ve come. There are plenty of couples who are questioning everything and hearing from someone still in the beginning stages can really help.”
“I’ll think about it,” Jessie said as she clenched her fist. The phase of their journey was very primitive in her mind and in truth, she had no way of measuring whether they were succeeding, skating, or moving forward. Luke always told her two steps forward, one step back. Sighing, she was beginning to realize her hold on the past, her very vanilla life, was keeping her feet firmly planted in cement.
“Good. Even today you told me with no words because there were none needed just how devoted you are to Sir Luke and how far you’ll go in order to make this work. You and Sir Luke are going to be just fine. Just fine indeed. I have one piece of advice left. Let Suzzana go in your mind. You have to. If you continue on with pushing you’re going to back him in a corner. Give him time to tell you about her when he’s ready. Give yourself time to adjust and simply enjoy what you’re sharing. Don’t allow there to be a third in your relationship.”
Jessie gazed out at the garden. “There has never been anyone who’s put jealousy in such a neat package. Thank you. I certainly learned a lot today, some of which makes me realize I have no clue what I’m doing.”
“Trust me. I’ve been exactly where you are and for me, the situation didn’t turn out well.”
Another chill returned as well as a resolve she hadn’t felt since the first few weeks they were together. Jessie was going to do everything in her power to show Luke how much this meant to her.
As Jessie climbed into
“He really did that?” Jessie was surprised.
“And it was the best thing he could have done. Instead of concentrating on the disease and the pity I was falling into, he forced me to concentrate on my training with him. My life with him. I am amazed how much he helped me. I know I healed much faster because of what he did.”
“That’s a wonderful story.”
Nodding, Aimee darted a glance in her direction. “The truly amazing part was that for all of Wally’s bravado in public, he wasn’t a very good Dom. He had doubts about his strength and his abilities and we were floundering.”
“Sounds familiar.” A cold chill raced down Jessie’s spine.
“Exactly. I know you came here to find out what you could about Suzzana and I honestly don’t know anything. Whatever happened in his past is something private, but I can tell you this. What you’re seeing in Sir Luke has more to do with what every good Dom should go through. He’s questioning himself, not you, and he certainly doesn’t want another woman. He’ll reach his stride when he needs to and only the two of you will know when and why. Until then, know you’re going to face issues together and anger. You’re going to fight and you’re in particular going to struggle with pushing hard against his dominance. In turn he’s going to become much stricter, thinking that’s best. In time you’ll both learn your roles.”
The words weren’t just wise. They touched Jessie deeply. “How do you know so much if you haven’t lived the lifestyle before your time with Wally?”
“I do a lot of reading and I teach a course in couples practicing alternative lifestyles. You might enjoy joining in at some point, perhaps lending your voice to those just learning.”
Jessie sipped her tea. “But I am just learning and I seriously doubt I’d be a big inspiration given what we’ve going through.”
Aimee moved closer. “That’s not true at all. You have no idea how far you’ve come. There are plenty of couples who are questioning everything and hearing from someone still in the beginning stages can really help.”
“I’ll think about it,” Jessie said as she clenched her fist. The phase of their journey was very primitive in her mind and in truth, she had no way of measuring whether they were succeeding, skating, or moving forward. Luke always told her two steps forward, one step back. Sighing, she was beginning to realize her hold on the past, her very vanilla life, was keeping her feet firmly planted in cement.
“Good. Even today you told me with no words because there were none needed just how devoted you are to Sir Luke and how far you’ll go in order to make this work. You and Sir Luke are going to be just fine. Just fine indeed. I have one piece of advice left. Let Suzzana go in your mind. You have to. If you continue on with pushing you’re going to back him in a corner. Give him time to tell you about her when he’s ready. Give yourself time to adjust and simply enjoy what you’re sharing. Don’t allow there to be a third in your relationship.”
Jessie gazed out at the garden. “There has never been anyone who’s put jealousy in such a neat package. Thank you. I certainly learned a lot today, some of which makes me realize I have no clue what I’m doing.”
“Trust me. I’ve been exactly where you are and for me, the situation didn’t turn out well.”
Another chill returned as well as a resolve she hadn’t felt since the first few weeks they were together. Jessie was going to do everything in her power to show Luke how much this meant to her.
As Jessie climbed into
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