and I exchanged a glance then, and just as I was about to tell Grace what had happened, Mum surprised us by saying, âSo I take it they came for the car, then?â She smiled grimly. âIt was nice of them to leave the wellies. Iâd forgotten about those.â
Grace went pale. âWhat? But, if theyâve found the car, does that mean they know where we are? Are they going to come round here and try to take the rest of our stuff? Oh my gosh, those debt men are really scary, Iâve seen them on TV. They could be on their way here right now. Weâd better bolt the door!â
When she said that, my heart started banging in my chest too, and Saff looked terrified.
Mum spoke all in a rush. âGrace, honey, calm down, itâs okay. I rang the Range Rover showroom and told them where to find the car. I didnât give this address, of course not. No one is coming after us, I promise you.â
Saff turned on Mum. âYou rang them?â she screeched. âThat car was the last thing we had! Even if we couldnât afford to keep it, we could have sold it and paid the rent for months ahead. And train tickets for me to go back to London. And new clothes. I could still have done my singing lessons. I donât
believe
this!â
Mum looked shaken. âIt wasnât an easy decision, Saff,â she half-whispered. âBut I had to do the right thing. The car was on a credit agreement, so it didnât really belong to us. It got us down here in an emergency, but keeping it after that would have been like stealing.â
âLook around, Mum, it still
is
an emergency,â Saff snapped, then went into full flouncy sulk mode and stormed off to the bathroom.
I put the kettle on and made tea for everyone, like I used to at home. I know itâs weird but I love the smell of the steam coming up when you pour the water on, especially if itâs Earl Grey or lapsang souchong (not that we had any of that here).
Mum came over to get her mug and paused for a moment. âOh, Abbie, youâve made five, love,â she said, looking startled.
âOh, yeah. My brainâs zapped from school,â I mumbled. But we both knew Iâd automatically made one for Dad.
Mum squeezed my shoulders and gave me a sad smile, but she didnât say anything about it, thank goodness. Just tipping it down the sink seemed too awful somehow, like I was tipping Dad down with it, so I drank mine, then gulped his down too, even though I didnât really want it. Grace was buried in her homework at the table by then, and Saff was out of her mood and looking at the free paper with Mum.
As I pretended to read one of my soap-making recipe books on the sofa, I couldnât help wondering what Dad was doing right now. Was he thinking about me like I was thinking about him? Was he worried about us? I wished that he could ring us, or that I had a number for him, so I could let him know we were okay, at least.
Then I glanced at my family â Grace frowning over her books, Saff circling job ads in the paper, Mumâs face a mask of worry. Suddenly I felt guilty for even
wanting
to speak to him. It felt like I was betraying them. But then, we werenât going to just forget about him, were we?
I wanted to talk to Mum about it, but it didnât seem like the right time. So, for the moment, I put it all at the back of my mind and went to get my box of beauty ingredients. I had just about enough essential oils left to make some solid perfume. I planned to fill the kitchen with the scents of rose and geranium, and maybe a bit of sweet orange and bergamot too. Theyâre supposed to be uplifting. I doubted they were uplifting enough to make us all feel totally better about the future, but maybe their warm cosy glow swirling around us would be enough to lift the cloud of gloom just a little.
On Friday just before lunch I was putting some books back in my locker and someone leaned in close to me,
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