ago.â
Mike was out of breath when he finished that sentence. Now it really hurt to breathe. It felt like there was an elephant standing on his chest.
âHang in there, Michael.â
âThought my name was Dumbass Kid.â
âSometimes you act like itâs your job description.â
âMy dad called me Michael.â
âI know.â
Mike was quiet for a minute. Then he said, âYou think that bozoâs crawling around the parking lot like a half-squashed bug?â
âWe can hope. You want me to go check?â
âNo! ⦠no.â Mike shifted around, trying to escape the pain. âShit! Fuck this, man! It hurts.â
âI know,â Ed said.
God, Mike thought. God ⦠He remembered the last time he had been in a church. He must have been nine. In the middle of whatever the preacher was saying, Mikeâs dad got up, took Mike by the hand, and left the church.
He was going to write that story sometime, heâd thought, the way his dad had smoked one cigarette after another, pacing, while they waited for church to be over, for Mom to come out. How upset he had been.
âThatâs not God,â Mikeâs dad said finally. âWhat that preacher was saying. God is not fire insurance. God would like to help people, Michael. It upsets Him to see how bad we screw ourselves up. People make their own hell. God doesnât send them there.â
âOkay,â Mike had answered, ashamed to admit he hadnât really been paying attention, just waiting for church to be over, thinking about getting home, playing ball.
His parents had had a fight about it, one of their rare ones, but his dad never went back to that church. And wouldnât let Mike go either.
He meant to write that story, except he couldnât think of an end. But now it helped, picturing God the way his dad had told him.
âHeâd been in a war, maybe he found out somethingâ¦â Mike said aloud. âYou find out things in a war, donât you?â
âYes.â
Mike tried to sit up, but Ed gently shoved him back down. They could hear a siren now, in the distance.
âDamn,â Mike said, âthis is going to be one mother of a hospital bill.â
âWork-related. Youâre covered.â
Mike couldnât see Ed too well now, his vision was blurry. But he heard him ask, âAnything else youâre scared of?â
âHell, yeah,â Mike gasped. âLots of stuff.â
He was terrified, things to be scared of lining up in his mind, waiting their turnâ¦
âIâll tell you something I learned. Pick one.â
âWhat?â
Ed said, âPick one thing to be scared of. But one thing you can handle if you concentrate.â
Mike thought. The siren was closer now.
âIâm scared Iâm going to yell, make some kind of noise when they come to move me. I donât want to.â
âAll right,â Ed said. âYou concentrate on that.â
INTERVIEWS WITH S.E. HINTON
Conducted by Teresa Miller
âIt was cliché, he knew. But he meant it classic.ââTim
The Outsiders
My fatherâs typewriter, which I learned to type on
.âS.E.H.
JULY 13, 2006âTULSA, OKLAHOMA
I have visited with Susie Hinton in her home before, but this time is different. Susie is going on record about her career as one of Americaâs most popular writers. It is an especially warm day, and before we formalize our conversation, we take a moment to admire the caladiums lining her front walk, some red and some white, their deep green veins accentuating the contrast. Inside, Susieâs fifteen-year-old Australian shepherd, Aleasha, is asleep on the kitchen floor and doesnât budge as we make our way to the refrigerator. Iâd noticed once before that Susie has the same Franciscan apple dishes my grandmother had left to me, and this afternoon she explains that they had belonged to her mother. The