had I just lost my husband but I lost my best friend , and it had been all my fault.
After defeating Vetis, making a deal with my brother, and Ra learning I’m Abihail’s soul carrier I withdrew from hanging out with Amy. She needed time with Gabriel , and I needed to mend things with Ra. At least that is what I would tell myself , but the truth of the matter was I envied her and Gabriel to the point of jealousy. The two were always so happy just to be with each other any moment they got their hands on. Amy never let on that Gabriel being gone so much bothered her. Heck, I didn’t know if it did at all. She simply went on with her day as if all was well.
Ra and I fought constantly. The only time Amy and Gabriel got into just the slightest tiff was when Gabriel wanted a doughnut tower at th eir wedding. After a few minutes of bickering and begging on Gabriel’s part, Amy gave in , and the two spent the whole day apologizing, necking , and smooching more than necessary.
Of course, being so in love is easy when you’re starting out new. Amy didn’t have to compete with someone Gabriel used to know. Amy didn’t have to try and stay calm when Gabriel called her by another name. She knew when h e looked at her all Gabriel saw was her. Amy didn’t have to battle memories from t hree different lives. Life for her seemed to be pretty flowers, wedding dresses, and doughnut towers. I didn’t have the luxury of being so care-free , and I resented Amy for it.
I had to try and find ways to show Ra that Abihail no longer existed; I hadn’t been the woman he married. I would have to lie and tell Ra I didn’t remember something from our time together in Heaven just so maybe he would see the woman in front of him and not the little lady he left behind. I wanted to be loved as Etta Marilyn Divad, not Abihail , wife of Rahovart the Arch and sister of Lucifer the Morning Star. Despite my frustrations, anger , and disappointments I never stopped lov ing him , even when I dwelled in Purgatory , because his temper ripped out everything my soul had known and loved .
I knew in his guilt he always attempted to go above and beyond for me, trying to prove how sorry he had been. It had been the only motive to explain Ra charging into Hell to save me from my brother and giving up his wings for another chance of having me love him . A nd all I did in return was throw it in his face.
As I gently closed the bedroom door, I hoped Ra would be t here waiting for me to talk things out and get back on track , but he hadn’t been . I didn’t blame him . Never in all of our arguments had I ever said anything as low as I did tonight , not as Abihail or Etta.
Lying down in bed , I pulled the quilt off the guest bed and wrapped it around me, w ish ing it were Ra’s arms . T he blanket would have to do for now .
“Gabriel just left for the bachelor party. You ready to do some partying of our own?” Unexpectedly, Amy poked her head through the doorway.
I had gotten so trapped in my head I totally forgot about the bachelorette party I was obligated to attend. I wanted to tell her I would be unable to go and to shut the door , but the fact that she had noticed me come in the house was reason enough to put my wants aside.
Chapter Four Ra
I hadn’t wanted to go back home after what Etta had said to me. I had gotten enough stares for even being allowed back much less allowed to continue my relationship with her. I couldn’t go back and let the naysayers see they were right about me.
The attic, once my prison, now became the one place I’d been able to sit in silence with my thoughts. Leaning my back against the attic wall , as I had so many nights before, my thoughts drifted back to my Demon side. I missed the simplicity my life had once been. No one to answer to. No one to battle. All I had to do had been to pull a few pranks on unsuspecting humans, scare them , and enjoy the peace the night brought. Then Etta came into my world, spinning
After defeating Vetis, making a deal with my brother, and Ra learning I’m Abihail’s soul carrier I withdrew from hanging out with Amy. She needed time with Gabriel , and I needed to mend things with Ra. At least that is what I would tell myself , but the truth of the matter was I envied her and Gabriel to the point of jealousy. The two were always so happy just to be with each other any moment they got their hands on. Amy never let on that Gabriel being gone so much bothered her. Heck, I didn’t know if it did at all. She simply went on with her day as if all was well.
Ra and I fought constantly. The only time Amy and Gabriel got into just the slightest tiff was when Gabriel wanted a doughnut tower at th eir wedding. After a few minutes of bickering and begging on Gabriel’s part, Amy gave in , and the two spent the whole day apologizing, necking , and smooching more than necessary.
Of course, being so in love is easy when you’re starting out new. Amy didn’t have to compete with someone Gabriel used to know. Amy didn’t have to try and stay calm when Gabriel called her by another name. She knew when h e looked at her all Gabriel saw was her. Amy didn’t have to battle memories from t hree different lives. Life for her seemed to be pretty flowers, wedding dresses, and doughnut towers. I didn’t have the luxury of being so care-free , and I resented Amy for it.
I had to try and find ways to show Ra that Abihail no longer existed; I hadn’t been the woman he married. I would have to lie and tell Ra I didn’t remember something from our time together in Heaven just so maybe he would see the woman in front of him and not the little lady he left behind. I wanted to be loved as Etta Marilyn Divad, not Abihail , wife of Rahovart the Arch and sister of Lucifer the Morning Star. Despite my frustrations, anger , and disappointments I never stopped lov ing him , even when I dwelled in Purgatory , because his temper ripped out everything my soul had known and loved .
I knew in his guilt he always attempted to go above and beyond for me, trying to prove how sorry he had been. It had been the only motive to explain Ra charging into Hell to save me from my brother and giving up his wings for another chance of having me love him . A nd all I did in return was throw it in his face.
As I gently closed the bedroom door, I hoped Ra would be t here waiting for me to talk things out and get back on track , but he hadn’t been . I didn’t blame him . Never in all of our arguments had I ever said anything as low as I did tonight , not as Abihail or Etta.
Lying down in bed , I pulled the quilt off the guest bed and wrapped it around me, w ish ing it were Ra’s arms . T he blanket would have to do for now .
“Gabriel just left for the bachelor party. You ready to do some partying of our own?” Unexpectedly, Amy poked her head through the doorway.
I had gotten so trapped in my head I totally forgot about the bachelorette party I was obligated to attend. I wanted to tell her I would be unable to go and to shut the door , but the fact that she had noticed me come in the house was reason enough to put my wants aside.
Chapter Four Ra
I hadn’t wanted to go back home after what Etta had said to me. I had gotten enough stares for even being allowed back much less allowed to continue my relationship with her. I couldn’t go back and let the naysayers see they were right about me.
The attic, once my prison, now became the one place I’d been able to sit in silence with my thoughts. Leaning my back against the attic wall , as I had so many nights before, my thoughts drifted back to my Demon side. I missed the simplicity my life had once been. No one to answer to. No one to battle. All I had to do had been to pull a few pranks on unsuspecting humans, scare them , and enjoy the peace the night brought. Then Etta came into my world, spinning
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