not?â
âHuh?â
âYou know, that might actually work.â My sister starts rummaging through her backpack. âThatâs what weâll do, Jorgianna. Itâs a great idea.â
âWhat is?â
Sammi pulls out a pen and a spiral notebook. As Mom drives down Edgemont Avenue, my sister opens the notebook and starts scribbling. âWe donât have much time,â she mutters to herself.
I bend my neck at an awkward angle to try to read what she is writing. âWhat are you doing?â
âMaking a contract.â She never takes her eyes off the page.
âA contract? For us?â
âUh-huh. Weâll make an agreement that while we are both on school grounds we wonât talk to, write, call, text, or acknowledge each other.â
âYouâre kiddingââ
âWeâll each lead our own lives, completely separate in every way. This way you wonât step on my toes and I wonât step on yours. Itâs the perfect solution.â
I want to say, âNo, Sammi, itâs not the perfect solution at all. Itâs anawful idea. What if I get lost? What if nobody talks to me? What if I need you?â I donât, though. I donât say anything. At least sheâs speaking to me. I donât want to make her angry again.
Our mother is signaling left to turn in to the Tonasket Middle School parking lot. âWeâve got to hurry,â says Sammi. She hands the notebook and pen to me. âSign, please.â She has written her full name near the bottom of the page in her loose, loopy, writing: Samantha Eleanor Tremayne . She is waiting for me to do the same. If signing the thing is what it takes to make her happy, I guess itâd be all right. I slowly sign my name next to hers, using my best slanted handwriting. Every letter is the exact same size. Jorgianna Miriam Tremayne . I finish as the wheels of our car come to a stop near the curb in front of the school.
âGreat. Iâll make a copy for you when we get home,â says Sammi, shutting the notebook and stuffing it into her backpack. âOh, and that includes the bus, too. No sitting together, okay?â
âOkay,â I say sadly.
She catches Mom eyeing us in the rearview mirror and whispers, âIâll go in first.â
I say loudly, âYou go ahead, Sammi. I want to talk to Mom for a minute.â
Sammi gets out of the car.
Mom gives her a wave. âBye, sweetie. Enjoy your day.â
âI will now ,â she says, smiling at me for the first time in days. She shuts the door and strolls away.
Itâs all I can do not to shout, âWait, Sammi, please wait for me!â
My mother turns in her seat. âI know itâs forbidden for a parent to set foot on middle school territory, so I wonât walk you to the counseling office.â
âThanks, Mom.â I lean forward. âYou double-checked, right? You made sure I donâtââ
âYou donât have any classes with Sammi. Iâm not certain about lunch, though. I forgot to ask about that.â
âYou forgot? Moooom, how could you forget?â
âSorry, honey. Iâve had a lot on my plate.â
Sammi and I in the same lunch? This could ruin everything. I tell myself to calm down and think it through logically. How many kids are in one lunch? One hundred? Maybe two hundred. I donât know. I canâtfigure the probability without knowing the variables. Okay, I will have to wing it. If it does happen and I do see Sammi, I will simply turn and head in another direction. I hope she wonât be upset if we end up in the same lunch. I donât want her blaming me for it.
My mother sees the concern on my face. âEverythingâs going to be fine, Jorgianna. Youâre going to handle your schoolwork beautifully, and Sammi will come around. Youâll see.â She puts a hand on my shoulder. âRelax. Be yourself.â
Be myself?