not. I want to see this jerk fry. But then I think of how Lindsay said it would destroy her if the cops got hold of it. Itâs a pretty raw deal. Making it with Josh at the party would have been something to talk about. Shag ânâ brag. Her friends would envy her for that. One more notch in her belt. A big one. But now that thereâs actual video footage of her little party trickâ¦that changes everything. Whether itâs fair or not. Thereâs a fine line between hooking up with a popular guyâ¦and becoming a Paris Hilton porn star. And unfortunatelyâwith Bryceâs thoughtful helpâ Lindsay crossed that line without even knowing it. Sheâs right. With this footage, the whole game changes. Sheâll be labeled a whore once people find out itâs her. The worst part? After the initial gossip dies down, Josh will be more popular than ever. Itâs like some sick cosmic joke. Heâll be the stud, sheâll be the slut, and the world will continue to spin. I skip my last class to think. Itâs a tough call. I want to take this to the cops. I want that scumbag to be busted wide-open for what he did to Lindsay. I want him to pay a big ugly fine, or do a few years in jail, or pull some heavy community service or whatever they do with creeps that film themselves screwing girls at parties. But like Lindsay says, if this goes to the cops, theyâre going to want evidence. All kinds of statements from people. Itâll get out. And itâll wreck her reputation, which is impossible to recover from. Sheâll have to move schools. And even then she might not get away from it. Itâs so frustrating. Iâm beginning to understand how hard it is for girls who find themselves in situations like this. Their choices are limited to Bad or Worse. But I canât just do nothing . If he doesnât get busted for this, Josh could easily take advantage of some other girl. And whoâs to say his friends wonât start doing it tooâespecially if they know they wonât get caught? I canât let him get away with it. But if I turn him in, Lindsayâs reputation will be killedâand so will our friendship. Sheâll see this as the ultimate betrayal. I will lose her forever. But if I donât do somethingâ¦I might lose her anyway. The last thing she said to me on Tuesday before she stormed off. That bit about how sheâs a slut. Sheâs going to start to believe it. Iâm worried sheâs just going to get worse. More drinking. More drugs. More sex. More of what she never stood for. I think back to Tuesdayâs conversation. I see Lindsayâs point. She canât go to the cops without this whole thing coming apart at the seams. But I donât want her world to fall apart either. I decide to take matters into my own hands.
Chapter Fifteen I donât have to go to the police. I donât have to blow this whole thing wideopen. I can deal with this myself. At least I can try. It scares the hell out of me, but I can confront Josh about the video. The last bell has rung, and students are pouring out of the main doors. I know where to find Josh. Heâll be hanging around the portables out back. He and his little band of emo drama freaks like to hang out there after school. Maybe they read Chaucer and Yeats. Smoke up and challenge each other to fake duels. I donât know. I decide to go now, before I can chicken out. My heart is racing and I have to keep wiping my palms on my jeans. I try to think about what Iâm going to say. I spot him leaning against the railing of the stairs to one of the portables. Heâs alone. Iâm glad. I still have no idea how Iâm going to handle things. As I approach, I realize how tall he is. Much bigger than me. Thatâs okay. Iâm not going to be intimidated by him. Iâm the athlete, not him. He might beat me in a Shakespeare smackdown, but Iâd