looking for, a bottle of Scotch. She poured some into a glass, drank it down, and made a face. She seldom drank. She poured more Scotch into the glass, added water this time, and sat back down at the kitchen table across from me.
âYou know how long it lasted,â she said. âA year. Then when he broke it off I came running to my big brother for whatâsolace? Comfort? A pat on the head? Well, I suppose I got as much from you as youâve got to give. But Ruth made it worth the trip. She let me talk.â
âI let you talk.â
âYou let me talk for fifteen minutes and then started fidgeting.â
âI made a mistake,â I said. âI didnât know how serious it was. Mix wasnât the first married man youâd busted up with.â
âI keep forgetting that Iâm the whore of the eastern seaboard.â
âI said I made a mistake. A bad one.â
âI reckon thatâs as close to an apology as youâre capable of,â she said. Sometimes my sister used reckon, sometimes guess. The reckon came from the South and the guess came from the North. Her voice was much like our motherâs which had had a French tinkle to it although, unlike our mother, Audrey had no accent except upper-income, undefinable American.
She drank a swallow of her Scotch and water and made another face. âHow do people drink this stuff?â
âPractice,â I said. âIt helps if you donât start before breakfast.â
âThey came to see me.â
âWho?â
âThe cops.â
âHow were the cops?â I said.
âPolite. Firm. Thorough. And puzzled, I reckon. Or maybe thatâs just how they try to appear. I havenât had too much experience with the police.â
âWhat about Mix?â
âWhat about him?â
âI mean how did he seem the last time you saw him?â
Audrey lit another of her long brown cigarettes. This time it seemed to taste better to her. âNoble,â she said. âHe was being noble. Sad, noble and nervous.â
âYou mean about going back to the kids and the little woman?â
She nodded slowly. âItâs strange how some men get after they turn forty or maybe fifty, especially if they marry early. They find something younger and perhaps prettier and they think itâs going to be their last chance so they grab it. But then they get guilty or scared or both and go back to where it was safe. Dull, perhaps, but safe.â
âYou said he was nervous. Was there anything else that was worrying him?â
âIf there was, he didnât talk about it. We talked about Us and Art and Literature and Life. I tried to capitalize all those things, but Iâm not sure I made it.â
âYou did all right.â
âAnd sometimes heâd talk about Her. Thatâs capitalized, too.â
I nodded.
âWell, one time he said that shortly after heâd turned forty he woke up, rolled over, and realized that for fifteen years heâd been married to a stranger.â
âThatâs not very noble.â
âBut think of the sacrifice he made by going back to her.â
âSheâs not all that bad.â
âMother would have said coarse.â
âMother was a snob.â
Audrey shrugged. âSo am I.â
âYou can afford to be.â
âItâs funny, but he was never interested in that. The money, I mean. I can tell. Jesus, how I can tell.â
âWell, rich young widows are rather popular.â
âHe mentioned you a couple of times,â she said. âIn passing.â
âOh? He spoke well of me, I trust.â
âNot very.â
âWhatâd he say?â
âHe said that you were a man with principles but no purpose and that he felt sorry for you.â
âYou defended me, of course.â
âI said I wasnât too sure about the principles.â
CHAPTER FIVE
T HE BLACK PLYMOUTH
Lope de Vega, Gwynne Edwards