and knowwhat’s right and what’s wrong. You should be able to devote yourself to the child in every way possible. The thing I would say should have been taken care of by that girl is protection. Ready or not ready, she should have thought about that.
February 2, 1991
W e went looking for a bridesmaid dress for the wedding today. We have to order them early so they’ll come in on time. Well, we settled for a bluish, greenish one. It is so pretty! We wear this big blown out slip underneath it. It’s really big and takes up a lot of room but we like it. We drove all the way to Brooklyn. That is like an hour and a half of driving. I hate taking long rides. There was so much traffic it was unbelievable! I would hate to live in Brooklyn. It’s dirty, it’s ugly, and it’s crowded. That’s my opinion and I think anybody would say so if they saw Flatbush Avenue. It’s so unattractive!
February 3, 1991
Dear Janice
,
I went to church today and I really believe I was touched by the Holy Ghost. I think there is really such a thing. I felt it there. Sometimes I get so confused about these things. My grandparents are bona fide Christians so I was grown to believe in God, but I never really thought about the whole concept. There was a really cute, young guy and the spirit struck him. He fell on the floor and he was shaking, and bobbing his head. No one could get him up. Nobody can tell me that was not real. All I could do is look. Sometimes that’s all you could do.
I wonder what God thinks about what the world has come to. He must feel really let down. The powers of evil seem to be taking over. It’s so scary.
February 5, 1991
Dear Janice
,
I started praying last night. It felt so great. It’s like he’s really there listening to me. I’m going to start doing it regularly. God is up there, I know it. School is going good now. I’m on the honor roll. God must have had something to do with it. All my success, I should dedicate to him. Iwonder what happens after you die; they say he takes your soul. That part is really confusing, but I’ll just wait until I die to get into that part. Right now I’ll just have to live and be the best I could be for him.
February 7, 1991
Dear Janice
,
I t’s amazing how Derek and me have gotten used to each other. We argue a lot now. I’m always hanging up the phone on him. It’s fun. We both know one of us will end up calling one another back. It’s crazy. Today I hung up on him and I guess he thought it was funny. He kept calling back and hanging up when I picked up the phone. My father was right next to the phone. He was trying to sleep. Derek didn’t know that. I got really upset with him though. He’s so childish sometimes. He acts really immature. Why do I put up with him? We’re actually closer than any of any of my friends and me are. I tell him everything. Maybe too much.
I wonder when exactly did he become part of my life.
February 9, 1991
Dear Janice
,
R ondah had decided to start back at college for a degree in business. Starting Monday she won’t be home from 4–10. You know what that means—babysitting til I drop.
I’m glad Rondah didn’t decide to end her life right here because she had Devoy. I’m glad she wants to become better and expand herself. She is really lucky to have parents like ours and a sister like me who’ll babysit for her anytime without pay. I’m becoming quite the little babysitter these days. I can’t believe once she didn’t want me to even hold the baby. It’s nice to know she trusts me with Devoy because I love him to pieces and she knows it.
February 11, 1991
Dear Janice
,
W e’re getting ready for a show in school. The show is all the way in June but the chorus has to learn the songs. I hate how we sound. We are pathetic! I don’t like anything about this school. Do you notice that? Everything is so against my taste. The way they teach is one. I mentioned before about English. They don’t make me interested in
February 2, 1991
W e went looking for a bridesmaid dress for the wedding today. We have to order them early so they’ll come in on time. Well, we settled for a bluish, greenish one. It is so pretty! We wear this big blown out slip underneath it. It’s really big and takes up a lot of room but we like it. We drove all the way to Brooklyn. That is like an hour and a half of driving. I hate taking long rides. There was so much traffic it was unbelievable! I would hate to live in Brooklyn. It’s dirty, it’s ugly, and it’s crowded. That’s my opinion and I think anybody would say so if they saw Flatbush Avenue. It’s so unattractive!
February 3, 1991
Dear Janice
,
I went to church today and I really believe I was touched by the Holy Ghost. I think there is really such a thing. I felt it there. Sometimes I get so confused about these things. My grandparents are bona fide Christians so I was grown to believe in God, but I never really thought about the whole concept. There was a really cute, young guy and the spirit struck him. He fell on the floor and he was shaking, and bobbing his head. No one could get him up. Nobody can tell me that was not real. All I could do is look. Sometimes that’s all you could do.
I wonder what God thinks about what the world has come to. He must feel really let down. The powers of evil seem to be taking over. It’s so scary.
February 5, 1991
Dear Janice
,
I started praying last night. It felt so great. It’s like he’s really there listening to me. I’m going to start doing it regularly. God is up there, I know it. School is going good now. I’m on the honor roll. God must have had something to do with it. All my success, I should dedicate to him. Iwonder what happens after you die; they say he takes your soul. That part is really confusing, but I’ll just wait until I die to get into that part. Right now I’ll just have to live and be the best I could be for him.
February 7, 1991
Dear Janice
,
I t’s amazing how Derek and me have gotten used to each other. We argue a lot now. I’m always hanging up the phone on him. It’s fun. We both know one of us will end up calling one another back. It’s crazy. Today I hung up on him and I guess he thought it was funny. He kept calling back and hanging up when I picked up the phone. My father was right next to the phone. He was trying to sleep. Derek didn’t know that. I got really upset with him though. He’s so childish sometimes. He acts really immature. Why do I put up with him? We’re actually closer than any of any of my friends and me are. I tell him everything. Maybe too much.
I wonder when exactly did he become part of my life.
February 9, 1991
Dear Janice
,
R ondah had decided to start back at college for a degree in business. Starting Monday she won’t be home from 4–10. You know what that means—babysitting til I drop.
I’m glad Rondah didn’t decide to end her life right here because she had Devoy. I’m glad she wants to become better and expand herself. She is really lucky to have parents like ours and a sister like me who’ll babysit for her anytime without pay. I’m becoming quite the little babysitter these days. I can’t believe once she didn’t want me to even hold the baby. It’s nice to know she trusts me with Devoy because I love him to pieces and she knows it.
February 11, 1991
Dear Janice
,
W e’re getting ready for a show in school. The show is all the way in June but the chorus has to learn the songs. I hate how we sound. We are pathetic! I don’t like anything about this school. Do you notice that? Everything is so against my taste. The way they teach is one. I mentioned before about English. They don’t make me interested in
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