It’s Still Complicated: …because I Am Still Waiting by Chandra Kant Jaisansaria Page A

visualizing it. We both started to visualize our honeymoon after our marriage. We were going towards the hotel in a hilly area with an empty road, surrounded by green trees on both the sides. I was driving the car in the pitch black night; she was sitting next to me. She is dressed in complete white and me in a black suit, we both were alone and no one was there to see us. Suddenly it starts raining and I stop the car, we both smiled looking at each other and got out of the car leaving the headlights on. We played her favorite song “ Pehla nasha, pehla khumaar, naya pyar hai, naya intazaar….” I held her right hand with my left hand and kept my right hand on her waist, her left hand was on my right shoulder and we started dancing. I could clearly see the raindrops falling on her eyebrows and then slowly falling down to her cheeks and then on her soft rosy lips; she was looking towards me and I knew she is feeling shy but I couldn’t stop myself from looking at her wet, glossy lips. I went close to her, by then the music stopped and there was complete silence, so I went ahead and kissed her. I could feel her so close that I just wanted to be there for few more minutes, but she was shivering because of the cold or may be because of her nervousness. As a gentleman would, I opened my jacket and gave it to her. We both went back inside the car and drove toward the hotel.
    Suddenly the rain stopped and both of us snapped out of our dream with our open eyes.
    “Would you always love me like this?” she asked. “Yes I will,” I replied.
    “Promise??” “Promise!”
    “ Achha , what after we went inside the room of the hotel…what happened then…” I asked her.
    She was feeling shy, she said to me coyly “You tell…” “Umm… We both have reached inside the room, I locked the door from inside, you started walking towards the bathroom to change your dress but there was no light in the room so you stayed in the room itself. We searched for the candles and lit them. I asked you to change the clothes in the room itself if you felt comfortable. You smiled and said “ Ok but you will not look at me till I change my clothes. ”. I said okay and you turned your back to me, you started taking out your earrings and then your white gown, I was looking at your wet back and you somehow came to know that I am looking at you, but you did not react as you knew that your mine now and you don’t have any problem with me looking at you. Now you started taking the gown off your legs. You left the gown on the bed and I could see you wrapping your hair with the towel. I started coming close to you…and I touched your shoulders and…”
    “And…” she asked.
    “And the lights are on and you have to change your clothes sweetheart!” I laughed mischievously.
    She also started laughing with me…
    We made up a plan to meet at my home next day, my Mamaji and Mami had to leave to attend a marriage in Rajasthan and Ravi has to go to the office.
    In the morning I woke up early to see that the plan to meet Megha was in working order. I saw Mamaji and Mami getting ready to go to the marriage and soon they were off. Mamaji told me to take care of the house and they left. Now it was Ravi who had to leave, I woke him up and told him that it was 10 am and he had to leave for his office. Ravi woke up shouting “Shit I am getting late!” and hurried towards the bathroom. I was feeling very happy and I smiled thinking that the plan was working out perfectly. Soon Ravi took his breakfast and left for the office. I got ready now and was waiting for Megha to come. She called me and said the guards were asking me which house number you are going into, and they wanted her to make an entry in the register. I asked her to enter a fake name and fake number in the register. She did so and came to my house. Before letting her in I ensured that no one was looking towards the door and I took her inside, and locked the door.
    Now it was me and her, all